1 If I only have, a time machine
Danessa Maye Hutalla believes in first and last. Whoever who will be her first boyfriend will also be her husband in the future. She is not man hater like other woman. She just realize that, what is the purpose of having first, if you will end up finding more and more until you found you're the one?
She is not hopeless romantic, in fact she has a lot of suitors, but that's all.
She gives all of them a chance to enter her heart, to capture her heart but something missing. She once called flirty because she gives her suitors a chance but in the end she reject them.
They say her skin is white that's why she's beautiful. But she doesn't care, she just gives them all the benefit of the doubt. Her friends told that her standard might be too high and that no one could reach it.
She also reads a lot of romance books, novels and even watched, so that when the one comes, she knows what she will do.
In short, she is already preparing for her the one .
She thought before graduation she would meet him but not the one who came but an ashole who always reminded her that she will become an old maid.
Don Clyde Mostalla is two-timer man, woman, and maybe he flirts in gay. She knew Don's fiber in the story of his friends.
Danessa doesn't know why she is being teased and teased by Don. As far as she remembers they are not close.
She thinks when Don came in her life, everything was in chaos. She do every ways to avoid Don because of her best friend. But it seems Don came to dispatch those fake around her.
But because of Don she met Glenn Eria Recon the perfect guy for her. No Girl Friend Since Birth, smart, and kind.
Eria is one of a kind. Every woman will fall for him.
The characteristics of her the one. But why is that? Why is she confused? Why she can't just say yes to Eria?
Graduation ball night when finally Eria asked her to be his girl friend.
Danessa know this is the day, the day she found the one. But when she roam her eyes on the crowd who are watching them dancing in the middle while playing the soft music and with the dim lights that makes everyone feel romantic.
She met his eyes. Don eyes. She doesn't know but she felt hypnotizing as if he was telling me to decline Eria. As if Don saying dump him, don't say YES.
She avoids his gaze and start to focus with Eria.
And there she feels the difference between the two's gaze.
Her tears start to fall.
She was about to choose.
Eria that can give her dream of having the first and last? Or with Don that she was not his first on every part of his life and she is sure she will not be his last.
Danessa tried hard to accept, that she can't live based on her standards.
She left and gave a promise she will back for good.
Life must be playful, when she returned, he already moved on.
He already forget that she was here.
Maybe there were right you cannot see the flaws of your love, because you know why? Because love is blind. You are blinded by love.
How ironic, this time I was the one who keep following him. Who begged to love me back.
I forget that what you called pride as a woman. My friends say never begged for love.
I do everything, even though I forgot how to love myself. While loving him, I forgot myself.
I gave my whole self to the man I thought he was right for me.
"I never regret that I loved you, in my next life I will still choose to meet you, to give me the greatest learned in my life".
"I waited you, I was hoping you will never gave up on us, but you do--- you gave up".
We heard the song the perfectly fit our story.
I wanna go back to the way we used to be.
I wanna feel your skin, your lips so close to me.
I wanna go back, when I called you mine all the time, every smile and every moment.
If I only have, a time machine.
"You know that I loved you right? You are my first love, but the thing is, I found my true love".
"Will you please say the you love me for the last time?"
"I think it's not good, I'm already engaged--
"Please, just say you love me, I begging you".
"Fine, I loved you".
"This is enough for me, to see you how happy, I'm happy for you, my love".
"I guess this is the closure, we need right?"
"A closure it is, let's start over again".
"Now, live your life, live to the fullest, and when you see the woman who will love you more than I do, please don't make too hard for her".
"Do I hurted you too much? I'm sorry, I was coward, and I was stupid to let you go".
"No, thankyou, because of you I found the man who will loved eternally".
"You know I'm hurting right know while saying that, but don't me, I guess this is goodbye".
"Yeah, it is a good bye"
"One question, if I explained everything to you, is there possibility that you come to me?".
I glared at him. He laughed, so I laughed.
"I'm just kidding, be happy".
I wanna go back to the way we used to be.
I wanna feel your skin, your lips so close to me.
I wanna go back, when I called you mine all the time, every smile and every moment.
If I only have, a time machine.
"This is our song, I wanna go back the time when loved me, I wanna feel your loved, I wanna feel your kissed. I wanna hear when you call me your mine, I missed those smiles you giving to me, if I only have, a time machine"
