1 I Am Here

I am here. I am here when no one is looking, I am here when no one cares. But you don't notice. Because I am the girl in the back that silently takes notes. I am the girl with the very little friends that I can count them on one hand. I am the girl that smiles threw her pain to not worry her family and friends and so they know that I am here. And I am not going anywhere. I am the person that is here for everyone around me but no one gives a second thought when I say I'm having a bad day. It's a joke they think. And see I have a great life. Believe me I do. I have a great mother, great grades in school, my future is planned out and it is going well... but it doesn't stop me from feeling this way. Because what people don't understand is that sadness doesn't mean you have a terrible horrific life. No sadness it comes from within. Sadness is not something you can just turn on and off like a light switch because if that was the case then I would be one happy camper but no. Sadness is an illness. It creeps into your mind and poisons your happiness when you least expect it. But I am here right?