1 Fate or Faith

I'm Kousei Umada. A depressed person who can't believe in something so unreliable as faith. Isn't it wrong to rely on something that has no logic or any scientific value.

So why do people believe that there's a god here? Why do they feel so strongly about something no one has even seen before? It never made any sense to me. I believe in fate, something that can't change. Or at least that's what I thought.

There's a theory called the world line theory. It's based on all the choices everyone has made. With each choice makes a different timeline and it goes on forever.

Some people might say that it's nothing but an irrelevant idea. I see how it could feel frustrating for scientists to get ignored or depressed.

Though our personalities and emotions are the same in any timeline right? If so you might think like, wouldn't we as individuals make the same choice regardless.

It is true but you can't rule out a theory like this based on just that alone. There's also animals, little mistakes, and a very simple feeling called Deja Vu.

There's a lot of uncertainties that can't be figured out in this world. So most people just believe in fate or faith.

After thinking this out now is there really a right answer to this. I'm always ranting and debating with myself inside my head.

Through these past ten years the answer became more vague. My emotions became more unstable as time went on until I met her, Kitome Ichinosei. She's just like me in a way. We're always wondering about the same theories and different ways of living in life.

One day I walked from my college back to my apartment. That day was different because of that choice I made. I started to walk home until I got half across the bridge.

I heard someone crying but that was natural. I've always heard someone crying under the bridge but I didn't feel the need to get myself involved.

This time I tried to ignore it and keep pushinng forward but this one time I just couldn't. I frozed. I began to question myself.

What could go wrong right? My life isn't all that great so how could me consoling someone a bad choice?

After convincing myself to talk to them. I made my way under the bridge. It was a girl and I knew her. She was in the same college class as me but earlier in the year she just stopped coming.

I asked "Why are you crying?" She turned away from me and replied with "Why am I here, my family, friends, and any motivation I've had are gone now. So why am I am I still here."

I was taken back about what she I couldn't even say anything. So I didn't. Instead I sat next to her.

Then the words finally hit me "We're the same. I also have nothing to live for. Even so giving up was never an option for me. My family put their all into raising me. I won't let them down like that and neither should you, right?"

Ichinosei got up and turned to me then she said "I know my family has done everything for me but I will never be able to repay them for that."

She's right thought, we won't be able to show them the appreciation that we want to. That's why... "That's why we need to live for them. If we don't then how could we ever face them again."

I don't believe in Hell or Heaven but I do believe that we'll be able to meet them again. Hopefully I'm completely wrong about this world. We'll never know until the end.

I stood up and dusted myself off "Do you have anywhere to stay? Not that I'm asking you because I want something from you.

While she was drying her she began to laugh "What's so funny?" Did I say something weird or something?

She said "When we we're in class you've never been the type to motivate someone. I was kind of caught off guard by it. To be honest I actually have no where to go."

I thought so. She's been here this whole time, suffering. All I did up until now was run away. All of those times where I could've said something to her, why was I so afraid?

It didn't sit well with me if I just left her here "Hey Ichinosei, I'm sure my mom wouldn't mind you staying with us. Well she's, actually not my real mom but she took me in and raised me.

Kitome had a huge smile on her face as she came to hug me "This means a lot, so thank Umada." In my arms she felt so light. Maybe I did make the right choice or a dreadfully wrong one.