24 I. Am. Not. Ruo Xi!

"You are not to speak of that name in my presence. Do you understand!?"

"I-I'm sorry!" Shu Xian immediately apologized, her body slightly trembling in fear under him. "I won't, I—"

Shu Xian was interrupted when Pan An's lips had crashed forcefully on her, Shu Xian's heart about to burst inside her chest as it screamed for its release.

"Mmf!"

Shu Xian put both of her hands on Pan An's chiseled chest, pushing him with all her might but alas, Pan An was too powerful for the young lady under him.

Shu Xian tasted the alcohol Pan An had drunk. Shu Xian whimpered against his mouth when she felt his tongue licking her bottom lip, as if asking for entrance.

'Why? Why are you acting this way?'

However, Shu Xian found her body reacting differently. She slightly opened her mouth, her mind in shock when she felt Pan An's tongue delving inside her mouth, intertwining with hers.

'What is this I'm feeling?'

Pan An's eyes were closed, Shu Xian's eyes observing him as she continued to watch how he was acting.

The man before her started to become gentle. His kiss slowed down, Shu Xian, actually liking the sensation as she wrapped both of her arms around Pan An's neck.

She then closed her eyes, already following the movement of the kiss with ease even though it is her first time having a passionate one.

'Why am I acting naturally? Why am I feeling this way?'

Pan An's movements were suave, his hand running through Shu Xian's hair, holding her head in place as he continued to kiss her with so much want and desire.

Their bodies were closer together, Shu Xian's heart beating in her chest. Somehow, even in this heated moment, Shu Xian found herself liking this moment with a stranger who's not actually really a stranger.

She knew that this is sudden and that it is wrong, but still, why is her body not reacting negatively to it unlike seconds ago that she wanted him off of her?

'Why… why am I allowing him to do so?'

It was as if Shu Xian felt every beat of her heart. It was like a rock band's drummer had been hitting it hard and successively—making Shu Xian feel embarrassed that Pan An might hear or feel the beating of her heart in this quiet, dimmed room.

Suddenly, Shu Xian felt the difficulty to breathe. When she moved her head away, making her break away from their kiss, she felt her face heating up, obviously her cheeks flushed red in natural blush.

Pan An looked at the woman below him, his eyes focused as the shy expression of the woman under him was inviting.

"P-Pan An!? What are you—mm!"

Without saying a word of warning, Pan An bent down, Shu Xian's body, stiffening as she felt his head resting on her shoulder. His breath was fanning over the skin of her neck as he breathed.

"P-Pan An," Shu Xian called out to his name cautiously, finding this situation embarrassing and at the same time, awkward. "You're drunk. You have to—a-ah!"

Pan An licked Shu Xian's neck once, followed by him leaving soft kisses. Shu Xian covered her mouth with her free hand, her eyebrows furrowed as she found the experience scary, and at the same time…

Pleasurable.

Pan An had his arm wrapped around Shu Xian's waist, like a predator not letting go if its prey. He continued to plant soft kisses on Shu Xian's body, the girl, stifling her soft moans in embarrassment.

'Why does this… feel so good?'

However, what she felt made her body stiffen in surprise as it was a foreign feeling to her.

"Mmm… P-Pan An? W-wait!"

Suddenly, Shu Xian felt Pan An's hand inside her shirt. Her body started to feel tingling sensations as his warm hand slowly traveled up, Shu Xian, panicking as she abruptly held his arm to stop him.

"P-Pan An, stop—!"

"Ruo Xi… you don't want me anymore?"

When Shu Xian heard what Pan An had said, mentioning the name of his ex-fiancée as well, she suddenly looked down to look at him.

Pan An's eyes were closed, his head now resting on Shu Xian's chest as some tears escaped from his eyes.

The smell of alcohol still came from him, Shu Xian, watching him as he started mumbling to himself, enough for the lady to hear.

"Ruo Xi… why? Why must you leave me without saying a single word?"

Shu Xian felt the hurt and pain in Pan An's voice. Her heart started to ache as well as she realized that Pan An had mistaken her for being Ruo Xi, when he was aware that she was Shu Xian a moment ago.

'So this Ruo Xi… she left him?'

"Ruo Xi… Ruo Xi…"

When Pan An's arm tightened around Shu Xian's waist, she was snapped out of her thoughts. Tears continued escaping from his eyes, making Shu Xian's shirt wet as he continued mumbling his woes to himself.

"Don't leave me, Ruo Xi… I love you so much. I really do…"

Shu Xian found herself pissed off right of the bat! She gritted her teeth and spoke under her breath, obviously annoyed.

"Pan An… I. Am. Not. Ruo Xi!"

Shu Xian's eyebrow started twitching. She felt annoyance surge in her body as she glared at the head of the professor on her chest, wanting to punch him at the same time.

'How rude! Why the hell did I feel good on the spur of the moment when she imagined me as his ex-fiancée!? Tsk! My ego is hurt!'

As Shu Xian attempted to push Pan An's arms away, he tightened his hold around her once more, with no intentions of leaving her even though he's drunk.

With his strong feelings for Ruo Xi, and with him imagining that Shu Xian is her, how could this drunk Pan An let her go!?

"Don't…" Pan An, said, Shu Xian narrowing her eyes at him as she prepared her fist to punch his head.

"Why, you little—"

"Before you go… allow me to hug you one last time… please."

When Pan An said his last statement, Shu Xian didn't dare to land her punch on his head. With his sadness evident on his voice, Shu Xian suddenly felt guilty of wanting to hit a sad, drunken man even though she really wanted to land the hit on him.

'Stupid professor.'

Shu Xian then brushed his bangs away from his face with her hand. The moment she saw his face, her eyes widened in disbelief, already finding it impossible for Pan An to leave her alone in the room.

'You got to be kidding me! He's sleeping already!?'