128 The promise

Ford. 

This is bad. 

I wanted to be the one to tell everyone. Somehow, I thought it coming from me would make things better. Yeah, who am I kidding? It was always going to end this way, whether we liked it or not. 

I am being shut out. I get it, this doesn't have anything to do with me. I am not her son. The only person she would be disappointed in is Lance. I will leave the disappointment to my father. he will give me his own fair share of grievance. So maybe worrying about Marybelle is not up to me. Maybe Lance can handle her on his own.

I hear the shouting from his room and trust me, I want to burst out of here and run to his rescue but I don't think it will do any of us any good. She has every right to be upset. We are doing things that might affect her marriage but this is not about her, this is about us. at the end of it all, we have our lives to live and I am done living my life for anyone else but me.