99 The only two options.

Ford. 

I don't want to go home, knowing I failed him. I couldn't convince Lisa to delete the video. 

I completely messed things up. 

There is this fear lingering within me. I already know how this is going to end. We are going to have to break up or risk my father finding out about this. the moment he finds out, he is going to send me to that facility again, or somewhere far away and then I will never see Lance again. I don't want to lose him. he is the only reason I am alive. 

Like literally, I don't think I would be alive if he didn't come into my life. So losing him is not even an option. I need him in my life for my sanity. He is the only person that matters. The only person that cares about me, that doesn't judge me and I can't lose that. for the first time in my life, I want to live I want to see another day. I don't want to die. And that means I have to fight for him. that is all I can do. keep fighting so I don't lose him.