44 My Troubled Heart-Part 1

Jace's POV

"Jace! We've got a problem, man." Charles said, I am on the construction site supervising the ongoing work since Engineer John ordered me to watch over the workers while he is away. He will report to his office and submit some reports.

"What is it, Charles?" I inquired, and I furrowed my forehead.

"Miracle left with John, I saw her a while ago." He said.

"Why you didn't inform me immediately?" I asked him, a little irritated, I am not afraid that she will get away this time. I can tell Miracle loves her grandmother's manor, so she won't leave without saying goodbye to Amelia. I am more worried about her being alone with the engineer, I can't deny it, John has a potential to be Miracle's boyfriend and I don't like the idea that came into my mind.

"Well, Engineer John is a good catch, maybe they need time to be alone." Charles spoke casually that made feel angry.

"Are you kidding me? Her safety is our priority Charles, I promised her father to look after her all the time. I don't care if she is having a date or whatever she will do." I said while running towards the car of Charles that parked near the building.

"Can I use your car?" I asked, and he nodded. But he gets in and settled in the front seat while I take the driver's place and drive the car in maximum speed. I love our job, Thomas White provided each one of us a car and I can tell he is eager to spend millions for her daughter.

"You need not come with me Charles, you could have watched the ongoing development of the structure." I added, and I can look at the cars of the other body tailing us.

"Miracle White is my job, I don't care about the construction, I felt guilty because I didn't do my task well. What if she runs away again? We don't know if she bribed the engineer." Charles answered.

"I don't think so, she just wants to date the engineer." I replied.

"Well, they are both single and good-looking, I could say they can be perfect for each other." Charles spoke and I prefer him to stop talking, but I can't since I don't want him to know that I am falling in love with Miracle.

"Why you look like that, Jace? Don't you think they aren't suitable for each other?" He commented again, I want to press the gas pedal harder, so we will reach our destination as fast as we can. According to the tracker that attached to her bag she is in a restaurant and I became angrier. They are having a date and I don't appreciate the way Charles gives him his full support, I need him to tell me I am more attractive than John. This is bad I never felt insecure about my looks before, but right now the idea of Mira has a marvelous time with John is killing me.

"Hey! Stop beating the red light Jace, we can catch up with them in no time." Charles declared.

"I just prefer to make sure she is safe Charles or else we are not competent for this job." I retorted.

"Jace Miracle is safe and there is no threat, I guess they are just having lunch, then they will watch movies together." He responded and I wish to punch Charles, he is giving me bad ideas and I can't imagine Miracle kissing the engineer, I just can't take it. I know I don't have any right to feel this way, but right now my heart is taking control with everything it seems I lost my ability to think.

"Yeah, but we need to be near her Charles to know that she is safe." I said, and I am praying the whole time that they will not watch a movie together or I will suffer thinking about it. If that happens, I will lose her forever. What is happening to me? Caitlin asked me for how many times to have a date since I am only hours away from her, yet I declined and told her we can't leave Miracle. I have the day off, yet I never tell her that. I became selfish and I don't know who I am anymore. I am obsessed with my feelings for Miracle.

We stopped on one of the famous restaurants within the area. I could say John is doing his best to impress Miracle, but I know her she told me she doesn't want fantasy things, and she wants to be treated as a normal individual. Well, I can tell there is something going on between them, I can see the way John looked at Miracle, it seems he has a deep affection for her, they just met, but is seemed he has known her for a long while. I wanted to intervene when I saw him offered Miracle a snack on the veranda. If he keeps on doing these sweet qualities to her in due time, he will capture Mira's heart and just thinking about it pisses me off.

"Are we going to eat lunch here as well, or we won't get outside the car?" Charles asked.

"I don't think it is a good idea to let Miracle see us. She will despise us, Charles. She told me to stay away from her as possible while we are staying at the manor. She wants some space and I guess we have to let her enjoy her date for now as long as there is no threat in the vicinity." I answered, but I can't stop the rapid beating of my heart. The truth is, I want to sit beside Miracle right now. I detest the manner she looked at John.

We waited for them to get out of the expensive restaurant, and it disappointed me when I realized they are on their way to the mall. Charles is right after all, they are leading to watch a movie and I thought I am having a fever at the moment. I want to run to Mira's side when we arrived at the parking area. John opened her door and hold her hand in leading to the mall entrance. And I felt relieved when John said goodbye to Miracle, and he gets back to his car and drove away.

It seems Mira asked John for a ride. She could have asked Charles or me. I notice she is trying her best to stay away from me. I can still feel that she loves me, but she also wants to forget me. I can't blame Miracle I turned her down for how many times and I felt guilty about it. If she only knows how much I long to be with her, then she will realize she means a lot to me. I am not good for her because I perceive she will be hurt and hate me at the end.

We followed Miracle in going inside the mall. I should have kept my distance, but I can't keep away from her. She looks so beautiful and breathtaking. I am behind her when she took the pair of riding boots when I can't help it, and I showed myself to her. I asked her why she is staring at the boots in her hand for too long. I guessed she was thinking about John the whole time. My comments made her angry that I can see her face turned red. She indeed accused me of spying on her and I told her I am only doing my job which fuels her anger even more. I can even feel that Miracle is affected by my presence, and I am hoping she still feels the same way towards me. I am afraid she will fall to John.

"Yeah! Right, you are only doing your job, now can we make it clear Jace? Can you stay away from me, you need not be near me all the time? It was written in the contract that you should be at a reasonable distance." She said, and I can feel her irritation, so I turn away from her saying nothing. She has a point, though, I am spying on her, what I am doing towards Miracle now is personal. I am not thinking about my job anymore. She occupies my mind almost every time of the day.

"Jace, buddy, what did you tell Miracle? I can say she is mad at you?" Charles asked and I can hear his amusement.

"She reminded me, she doesn't want us to be near her." I said.

"Why did you come near her in the first place? We know that she doesn't like it to be seen with bodyguards it will make her uncomfortable." He replied.

"Yeah, I know it was a wrong move on my part, I think it is better to stay away from each other, or she will be more disappointed if she will see us being near to each other." I said, and I walked aside from Charles. I still follow her in going to the ladies' wear department. It is not only my job to protect her, my whole being wanted to be with her all the time. I keep enough distance from her and I go out of the department store and wait for her while I lean my back on the railings of the mall.

"Jace?" I heard an intimate voice called my name, and I don't know how I felt at the moment. I see the angelic face of Caitlin beaming at me, and I can't help myself but grin. Caitlin ran in my direction, and she hugged me and I secured her tiny waist with my arms, and out of habit I kissed her on the lips in front of many passersby and the shoppers for a long time, and out of the corner of my eye, I saw Miracle standing not so far away from us. I can look at the shocked and the pain that registered on her lovely face. I am screwed, I am hugging Caitlin, and I felt so guilty for not able to visit her while I am just two hours away from her. It was because of Mira, but the familiar scent of Caitlin made me embrace her even more and I realized I am in big trouble and I don't know how am I going to get out from this mess.