47 Chapter 47 Live for Me

It's early evening when it's time for me and Loki to leave for our honeymoon and we have already said goodbye to our family and Hela. As we won't be back for a few weeks before we escort my friends from earth and my brother to the Bifrost bridge. But I can't stop looking at my brother and I know something is wrong. He hasn't told me something and I need to know. What is he hiding from me?

Once we are inside, I say goodbye to my friends who then say goodbye to Loki and it gives me the chance to pull Tony to one side.

"Tony, what aren't you telling me?" I ask, awfully worried.

He forces a smile, "Nothing is wrong."

I give him a look, "My husband is the god of mischief and lies. Do you really think that I can't tell that you are lying? Please tell me what's going on."

"I don't want to ruin your day." He tells me, "It's nothing."

"Tony." I warn, demanding answers, "Tell me."

He looks at me and finally gives in, "Alright… I've got cancer Katrina." My face drops, "I have got the best doctors helping me but it's fatal. I've got a few years left in me so I'm not dying yet but this will probably be the last time you see me."

I shake my head, in utter shock, "Oh Tony, you should have told me."

He smiles, "How could I? We both knew I was going to die before you but I had hoped that I would last longer. But I got to see you get married and you are so happy. I just didn't want to ruin your special day, your wedding day with this news. It just means I am going to start to deteriorate and won't last much longer."

"But you still have a few years left so you will see me again." I say with a smile, "We will see each other."

He shakes his head, "Katrina I don't want you to see me on my death bed."

"But…"

He interrupts me, "Remember when you told Loki to leave and never return? Back when you thought you were mortal?" I nod, "We must do the same. I can't let you see me wither and die, it would hurt you too much and I can't do that to you. So this must be the last time you see me, it has to be."

I feel tears in my eyes and he rubs them away, "Tony..."

"I've had a brilliant life Katrina. A career, my family, you. I have had such a good life and I'm going to die with no regrets." He tells me, trying to reassure me, "Just please keep living, have a long happy life and I will see you in the next life. Promise me you won't come and see me die. Just live your life with Loki, have kids, have a family, more adventures. Live for me."

I nod, "I love you Tony, I'm going to miss you."

He smiles, "And I love you." He hugs me, "My younger sister."

We laugh and yet the tears are still falling silently down my face as I clutch him tightly, knowing this is the last time I will see him. My older brother. I always knew he was going to die before me but I guess I hoped it wouldn't be any time soon. But time has caught up with him and now he is going to die and I can't stop it. At least he will be ok and it isn't for a while. I'm just going to miss him and knowing I won't see him again alive, hurts like hell

He pulls away, wiping my tears, "I'm going to miss you sis. Stay strong, I have a few years in me yet, I just don't want you to see me go."

I nod, pulling myself together, "Yes, I understand, more than anyone. I am just going to miss you, it will be strange when you are gone. I guess I hoped it wasn't anytime soon."

"Same but my past lifestyle choices caught up with me." He smiles at me, "Please enjoy your honeymoon and don't worry about me. I am ok and even when I am gone, I will be at peace. Knowing you are happy and so are my family and friends."

"Yeah, I will." I say with a smile, trying to ignore the pain in my heart, "Goodbye Tony and thank you, for being the best big brother I could have asked for."

He smiles, "And thank you, my younger sister, I am so glad my father sneaked you into my family."

This makes us both laugh and hug again before we reluctantly pull apart and he goes over to speak to Loki, whispering something to him. Loki nods but I notice his face is paler and I assume he just told him. They hug before he goes over to join the others and Loki comes to my side. He slips his arm around me and I hold onto him, trying to ignore the pain in my heart as we wave goodbye to them as they are sent back to Earth. Tony the last face I see as they disappear and I feel a tear roll down my cheek.

"Are you ok?" Loki asks me, "He just told me."

I wipe the tear away, "I really don't know. I mean… I know he is going to be alive for a while but the fact is his years are numbered and the fact I won't see him again… it hurts. It really hurts."

He nods, "Come here, my angel."

Then he pulls me closer, wrapping his arms around me, and doesn't let go. I bury my head into his chest, letting some of the tears fall as he comforts me. But I refuse to let myself fall into despair as Tony is ok and still alive. It hurts that I won't see him again before he dies but he is ok. He has had a good life and still has a few years left in him. And I will keep my vow and have a good honeymoon, I'm just going to miss my brother. God, I hope he doesn't die any time soon. But he is alive and ok so I will try not to think about it. He will be ok.

"We can go tomorrow." He whispers, "We don't need to go tonight."

I shake my head, pulling myself together, "No I want to. Tony wanted me to go and he is ok so I shouldn't worry. He is ok and he is with his family. I'm just going to miss him."

He kisses my forehead, "We all are but he is happy and I promised him I would look after you."

"Don't you always?" I say, making us both chuckle, "I just hoped he had more time."

"So did I but he will be ok, it's Tony after all." He tells me, "He will have his family around him and when he does go, we will be there for the funeral to say goodbye. I know it hurts that you won't see him again but he still alive and ok. He is ok."

I take a breath, "He's ok." I wipe my face, removing any lingering tears, "I'm ok."

He pulls away and looks at me, "Are you sure? We can go tomorrow if you want. We can just chill and relax."

I shake my head, "No I promised Tony I would go and he would kill me if I didn't. Plus I have been looking forward to our honeymoon so I want to go, I want to see where we are going to be and enjoy the next few weeks. Tony is ok so I won't worry."

"Alright." He kisses me on the cheek, "Let's go but if you want to come back…"

I interrupt him, "I won't. I want to enjoy the next three weeks with my husband and nothing is going to ruin it."

He smiles, "Then take my arm."

I smile before I take his arm and we go over to the other side of the Bifrost where we just said goodbye to my friends and Tony. Loki nods at Heimdell who activates the Bifrost and in seconds we are sucked into a portal and flying through space, my destination unknown. I might be worried about Tony but he is ok and I've got to keep living. I just dread the day he goes but he is happy and I am happy. I can't wait to enjoy our honeymoon at this mystery location. I just wonder where we are going.