25 Chapter 25 Broken

I feel broken. I know I shouldn't feel broken but I do. I've found out the truth, where I came from and I am happy about that. I'm this princess and it's amazing but I'm terrified. My parents and my kingdom are gone, all died protecting me and it horrifies me. I hate the idea that they all died protecting me from this order but I'm thankful. I got to live a good life on Earth with my family and now with Loki but they all died. They all died and I hate they died for me. And now this order might come for me again and I'm scared Loki will die protecting me. Just like they all did. I feel broken and this must have been how Loki felt when he learned he was a frost giant and that secret crippled him. I'm just hoping it doesn't cripple me. Bloody Odin, he should have told me.

I'm completely distracted by my thoughts, letting the tears fall and thinking about everything that I don't even notice Loki is beside me until I feel his arms around me. He has sat beside me and pulls me into his arms, so my head is resting on his chest. I'm still clutching my book with one arm and holding onto him with the other.

"Shh Katrina, calm down." He whispers, "Shh my love."

I take a breath as I calm down, holding onto him and letting myself finally relax. He keeps his arms around me, rubbing my back and kissing my head. God I love this man, so warm and comforting.

"Are you ok?" He asks me as I stop crying.

I wipe my tears away, "I feel… broken… is that how you felt? When you found out the truth?"

"I'm afraid so." He whispers, "It crippled me and I felt so alone. But you're not alone and I am here for you. To protect you and love you unconditionally. My princess."

I laugh, "Princess. I really didn't see that coming."

He chuckles, "Yeah neither did I but you have always been a princess to me. And I love that I am courting a powerful princess who is half Goddess, remarkably beautiful and can tell my father off."

"Your father is a dick."

"That he is." He says, agreeing with me, "I gave him a piece of my mind after you did and I'm not happy my father kept another secret. I'm sorry he hurt you."

I nod, "He was just protecting us in his own way. I wish he had told me but I am glad your mother did. She told me everything but it just shocked me to the bone. Lost princess, fallen kingdom, dead parents and then this order… it was just too much."

He kisses me on the forehead, "Shh breathe."

I take a breath, "I am half goddess Loki. The Dark Order slaughtered a whole kingdom and my parents to get to me… and what if they come for me again? I would be putting you in danger and your family and everyone and…"

He cuts me off, "Katrina stop, relax. You're safe."

"For now." I pull away from him, "Loki I can't expect you to protect me, keep saving me from every psycho that comes after me. I can't give you that burden."

"But I want that burden, I want you." He smiles at me, "You're my princess, my girl and I would burn the heavens to protect you. To save you. It's my duty to protect you as a prince and your boyfriend so this changes nothing. We will keep doing magic like before and if they come, we will fight and I will protect you with every fibre of my being. And so will everyone else as you are worth dying for, you have always been worth dying for."

I frown, "I just hope it doesn't come to that."

He shakes his head, "It won't. Father has already increased security and there has been no sign of the Dark Order in years. We are safe and your identity is hidden, only my family and our friends know and maybe a few others… I don't know."

"Our friends know?" I ask him, surprised.

He nods, "Thor told Sif who told everyone else. The secret is out but it doesn't matter. Like I said, the Order isn't around and you are safe. But even if they find out, I'm here for you, always."

I smile, "You are too good to me."

He chuckles, "Well we both come with baggage. You have the Dark Order and I have Thanos. Just means we have more in common. We both have demons and we are both royalty."

"True. So strange, I'm royalty, a princess." I say with a giggle, "Please don't tell me everyone is going to start bowing and calling me princess?"

He smiles at me, clearly amused, "Well yeah but you get used to it."

I chuckle, "Says the prince." I look at the book again, "But imagine what my life would have been like if I had grown up as a princess. My life would be so different."

"I think like that sometimes. Imagine if I had known the truth. Imagine if Thanos hadn't mind controlled me but at the end of the day, I have no regrets." He stares at me lovingly, "As I got you and it made it all worth it."

I smile, "Yeah I admit it horrifies me that all those people died and I'm terrified of it happening again but… I wouldn't have changed a thing otherwise I would have never met my prince."

"My princess."

Then he kisses me and I kiss him back, it impossible to resist him and I get lost in it. All the horrible images and notions melt away as I get lost in this passion we have. This fiery intense spark and I love it, I love him.

He pulls away, "Now that my princess is feeling a bit better, shall we have a picnic? Just us and we can chill until later."

"Sounds perfect."

Then we leave the fountain and Loki teleports us to a waterfall in the middle of nowhere so it's just us, together and alone. We have a picnic and we go through my book together, Loki reading sections to me and I have finally relaxed. I know who I am and I can't change that. I can't change the past or change the fact that my parents and my people died for me. But I can keep living my life with Loki and learning magic. As I am a princess, his princess and we will be together no matter what happens. Nothing will change that.

Later on we go to the feast and like Loki predicted, everyone knows who I am and we ended up having a celebration in my honour. To honour the kingdom and fact I am alive. It was quite fun and after making peace with Odin, we partied for weeks and it's been so much fun. It hurt when I first found out who I was but I'm enjoying being a princess and I will explore this side of me and keep living. I won't live in fear of who I am or my past. Maybe I might get targeted and maybe I won't but I will live my life. I will be happy and enjoy it with Loki. It doesn't mean I don't occasionally worry about the Dark Order or someone coming for me but I'm enjoying my life. And I won't let anything ruin my happy life with Loki.