19 Chapter 19 True Heritage

With Loki gone, I felt like the light had been drained out of my life but somehow I found a way to move forward. Tony comforted me and helped me keep distracted, helping me get back into science and writing as well as keep practicing magic. It was still painful every day without him here and most days I sleep in his room just so I can feel close to him. But always feel gutted when I wake up and he isn't beside me. It's been hard but I guess it's been a bit easier since me and Loki still chat every night. Speaking telepathically across the realms to each other and he tells me how he settled back into Asgard as a prince again while I tell him about my life. It makes it more bearable and as the years passed, I kept moving on forward but still hold Loki close to my heart.

It's been 20 years since Loki left and I'm in the medical wing of the tower as Tony does a full check up on me. Blood, scans, the works. We are both worried about me and there is a reason why. I'm 50 years old and I haven't aged a single day since Loki left. Not even a bit. I look like I'm in my twenties. I haven't got wrinkles or white hair or any sign of aging while my brother has. He looks older with his hair becoming grey and he is taller while I haven't agaed. So my brother is doing some scans so we can figure out what the hell is wrong with me. I was even tempted to tell Loki but I didn't want him to worry or get his hopes up. Especially if it's just my magic making it so I look younger for longer or something. While he would probably think I'm not mortal and I can't give him hope. Not when we are both suffering enough.

Tony has just finished doing the tests and I sit on the bed, my legs over the side as I fiddle with the pendant. I just want to know what is wrong with me. Why haven't I aged like my brother? Apart of me hopes it's because maybe I am not mortal but the idea of that… it's too horrible. I can't give myself hope. I would love to not be mortal so then I could be with Loki but it's impossible, I'm definitely mortal, human. God I miss him so much. I love him.

I'm pulled out my thoughts as Tony comes into the room and he is holding my results. But I quickly notice how pale he is and how shocked he looks. Something is wrong.

"Brother what's wrong?" I ask him, "Is it bad?"

He looks at me, "Katrina you are not going to believe this… but you're not human."

My eyes widen in shock as I shake my head, "That can't be possible."

"You're adopted sis." He tells me, "Your blood is different to mine and our parents. You must have been adopted but it was covered up by our father by the looks of it."

I rub my face in shock, trying to digest it, "I guess that explains the magic… but then, what am I? If I am not human?"

That's when he smiles, "You're Asgardian."

My eyes widen in shock and I feel my body trembling and I can't be. I just can't be. But I haven't aged and I have magic. It all makes sense and yet I can't believe it. He shows me the test results, showing that I am indeed Asgardian and it takes my breath away, it's shocking. How did I not realise? It explains so much and even though I cannot believe it, it means I can… I can see Loki again. I might actually get to be with him again and it brings a smile to my face. But it fades as it means I will have to leave my brother behind and he will die before me.

I look at him, "If I'm an Asgardian, how did I end up here?"

He shrugs, "I don't know but you will always be my sister to me." He then gives me a look, "Now I think you should contact Heimdell. I believe a certain god would want to know you are not mortal."

I smile, "He's going to be so thrilled but once he knows… I can see him again. I can finally see him again but…" I then frown as I look at him, "But Tony, what about you? I can't just leave you on Earth alone. You are still my brother."

He sits beside me, "And you will always be my sister and it's not like you can't visit. But I know where your heart truly lies and it certainly isn't on earth." He takes my hand, "Contact Heimdell and see if the mighty Odin will let you go to Asgard. You have to try."

"Thanks brother."

Then we hug and Tony goes to tell my friends as I go back onto the main floor and out onto the balcony.

The cold air hits me and I take a breath as I let everything happened sink into my mind. I have been an Asgardian all this time and I didn't know. It was so obvious too. Even Loki said only Asgardian's could talk telepathically across the realms and we joked about me being adopted. He was right and to think if I had checked back then, maybe we wouldn't have suffered the past 20 years being apart. But now I know and maybe I can finally see him, be with him. I miss him terribly, I love him and I have to try. I have to try. I will gladly give up my life on Earth and even leave my brother if I can spend the rest of my long life with him.

So I look up to the sky, knowing Heimdell is watching, "Heimdell, I know you are watching or at least I hope you are. I have a message for Odin, I need to ask him something…" I take a breath, "I found out I am Asgardian, adopted and I wish to be granted permission to come to Asgard as I love his son. I love Loki and I know he loves me. I just want to visit him, see him. Even if you don't want me to stay, I would understand but please… I love him." I beg, praying he hears me, "Please deliver this message Heimdell, thank you."

Wiping a few tears away, I go back inside to see my friends and spend which could be my last day with them and my brother on Earth. Hoping and praying that Odin grants me permission to come to Asgard so I can finally be reunited with my beloved Loki. I am Asgardian, I am his girl and I pray I get to see him again. I end up falling asleep, not even talking to Loki like I always do as I wait to find out if I can see him again. Hoping this is the last night I will be alone.