17 Chapter 17 Two Hearts As One

Katrina's POV

I'm not sure how much time has passed since Killian raped me and left me alone but finally I have managed to gain the strength to sit up properly against the wall. My body is still aching and hurting but at least I can sit up and try to get comfortable. My legs and arms are covered in bruises and I can feel the blood mixed with his cum dripping out of me, dripping down my thighs and onto the floor. It makes me cringe and hate myself the more I think about, feeling so unclean. So I have tucked my legs close to my chest to hide myself. It's the only way to cover myself with nothing on and stuck in handcuffs.

The tears however are still falling silently down my face and all I keep thinking about is that Loki won't want me now. I don't want me now. I'm horrified he did this to me and I hate myself for it. I am so unclean, tainted, disgusting and it was so painful. He wouldn't stop and I can feel the blood and the cum and it makes me want to die inside. And when Loki does come after me, he is going to find me like this and he won't want me. I'm dirty and gross, tainted. I was raped, violated by another man and he's going to hate me. I'm going to lose him.

Oh Loki, I wish I had gone with you.

Taking a breath, I wipe away my tears as I try to calm down and not think about how much my body hurts or how much I hate myself. I look down and my eyes widen when I see the pendant necklace around my neck is glowing. Loki is trying to find me. I want him to find me but he is going to hate me. Will he forgive me? Will I lose him?

Then a voice speaks into my mind, which catches me off guard, 'Katrina can you hear me?'

My eyes widen as I recognise his voice, 'Loki?'

'It's me my love, I'm here.' A tear rolls down my cheek, a tear of relief, 'I'm coming for you my love, we all are. Are you ok?'

I gulp, hesitant to tell him, 'I…' But I stop myself, not wanting for him to hate me.

'Katrina please talk to me.' He begs, sounding so worried, 'What's wrong? Has someone hurt you?'

'I don't want you to hate me.'

He responds quickly, 'I could never hate you. Why would you think I would hate you? What has happened? What's wrong?'

Taking a breath, I will myself to tell him, 'Killian he… he… he raped me Loki.'

Tears begin rolling down my cheek and I clutch my legs tightly, dreading his reaction and I feel so ashamed and horrified. I'm so dirty and gross. Please don't hate me, please don't hate me.

I begin to explain but the tears keep falling, 'I'm so sorry. I woke up naked and chained and he pinned me down and I couldn't fight back and… I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry.'

He interrupts me, 'Shh my love, calm down, don't apologise. This isn't your fault.'

'You don't hate me?'

'I could never hate you.' He tells me, 'I love you and I always will. That bastard won't change that and I promise you I am coming for you. I will be there as fast as I can and I will make him pay for hurting you.'

I nod, 'I just couldn't…'

He continues to reassure me, 'Don't blame yourself Katrina. You are still my girl, my love, no matter what he has done. He will pay for hurting you and trust me, he will suffer for this. But I don't hate you or blame you or anything. I hate the man who hurt you, not you.'

'I thought I would lose you.'

'You will never lose me.' He reassures me, 'We are nearly there. Just hold on a little longer my love. I love you.'

I wipe my tears away, 'I love you too. Please hurry.'

Then the connection breaks and I feel a sense of relief wash over me. He doesn't hate, Loki doesn't hate me and he is coming for me. I was so worried that he would hate me and wouldn't want me anymore. But he does and he is coming to save me from this hell. I just pray he gets here soon before Killian tries to hurt me again. I don't want to be touched or raped by him ever again. I'm Loki's girl and the idea he touched me… oh god Loki hurry before he does it again. I love you and only you.

I move my hands and clutch the necklace in my hands, holding it tightly as I close my eyes and pray Loki gets here soon. But he said he was nearly here… how far away is he? However I get my answer when I hear something outside followed by explosions and a lot of commotion. I feel a smile spread across my face as I open my eyes and look towards the window. I can't see anything but a fight has broken out and I know its Loki, Tony and my friends. They are here.

Then I hear commotion coming from outside my cell and I listen intently. There is suddenly a scream and I recognise that voice. It's Killian and it sounds like Loki is making him pay for hurting me. It then becomes quiet before the door unbolts and it opens.

The door opens and Loki is standing there, dressed in his armour. I feel tears roll down my cheek as he runs over to me and looking at me worried and horrified at the state of me. I'm such a mess.

"Loki…"

He drops to his knees beside me before pulling me into his embrace, "Shh I've got you. I've got you. He can't harm you."

I wince slightly from moving and my body is killing me but he is here. He is here and I'm in his arms again. I bury my head in his chest, letting a few tears fall as he uses his magic to break the cuffs off my wrists. I know they are sore but the pain melts away as I watch Loki heal my wrists before he begins healing my body. Slowly healing the bruises on my arms before moving his hands to heal my legs and then doing downstairs area and inside me. I can feel his magic all through my body and the pain melts away, my body no longer hurting and I just feel weak. He uses magic to clean the blood and cum away before holding me tightly in his arms, not letting me go.

I wipe my tears away, "Thank you, thank you."

He kisses my forehead, "Shh it's ok. I was always coming for you my love. Always. You're safe now and he won't be able to hurt you again. I made sure of that."

"What did you do to him?" I ask him, my voice still shaky.

"Put it this way, he won't be able to walk let alone rape anyone any time soon." He tells me, "I may have broken his spine."

I chuckle, "Good."

He laughs a little with me, "Well I had to make him pay for hurting my girl. Are you sure you are ok? No pain?"

"You healed me, I'm ok." I whisper, "Just really tired and horrified that he did that to me. I feel like I need to scrub my skin until its red roar so I can feel clean again… it was just… just horrible and painful."

He holds me tighter, "I'm so sorry that happened to you my love. I should have protected you from him."

I shake my head, "It's not your fault. It's his."

"Exactly, it's his." He whispers, "Let me get you home and I will run you a bath and pamper you until you feel better."

"Please and some clothes as I am freezing."

He chuckles, "Well I have an idea for that."

Then we pull apart and I watch as he takes off his cloak and uses his magic to manipulate it and make it change form. In seconds he has made a green dressing gown with the fabric which is enough to cover me and I'm very keen to get into it. I hate feeling so exposed. He puts it around me, helping me put it on as I'm still weak before tying it with the sash so it covers me up.

"Do you think you can walk?" He asks me, noticing how weak I am.

I shake my head, "I can barely move."

"That's ok, I would rather have you in my arms anyway."

Then he gets to his feet before carefully picking me up bridal style, holding me tightly. I rest my head on his shoulder, holding onto him as he carries me out of that cell and straight into a main hall. In the middle is Killian, being taken away by Shield again except he is on a stretcher and I can't help but smile. He deserved it for what he did to me.

We go past them and out of the warehouse where the last of Hydra is being round up and there isn't many of them. Not compared to last time. I guess it's the last of them and I'm pleased. It means I won't be kidnapped any time soon.

I see the jet and beside it is Tony and the rest of my friends, looking worried sick and frankly annoyed. They spot Killian first and growl at him, Tony being held back by Steve but they see how Killian is hurt which makes them smile. Before they notice us and they sign in relief when they see us, see me. I'm glad Loki cleared the blood and cum and healed me otherwise I don't think I could cope with the shame of it.

"Katrina are you ok?" Tony asks me as we reach them, "Loki told us what he did to you."

I nod, "I'm just a bit weak but I will be ok. Loki healed me."

"And beated up Killian by the looks of it." Tony says, sounding proud as he looks at him, "What did you do? Break his spine?"

Loki nods, "Yeah exactly that. He is lucky I let him live."

Tony chuckles, "Well I would have killed him personally but breaking his spine works. I will make sure he is dealt with and locked up for good. Please look after my sister."

"I will, don't worry." Loki reassures him.

Then he goes over to Killian and I reassure all my friends that I am ok before Loki teleports us back home to the tower. We appear in his bedroom and I'm so relieved to be back home. He carries me into the bathroom and carefully puts me down on the seat beside the bath before he begins to run a bath. Adding bubble bath and bath salts, making it smell lovely and change colour. It's really nice and I really need to scrub Killian off me. I still feel dirty and unclean. Even though Loki healed me and cleaned me up. I still feel… gross…

I'm so absorbed in my thoughts about hating myself that I don't even realise Loki has moved to sit beside me until I feel his arm around me which makes me flinch.

"Sorry." He says, removing his arm.

I shake my head, "It's ok… I was just lost in thought… I don't mind you… I…"

He puts his arms back around me, "Shh Katrina look at me, look at me." I feel tears escape my eyes as I look at him, "You're safe my love. You're safe. Come here."

Then he carefully puts his arm around me and lifts me onto his lap, being gentle with me and I bury my head in his chest as I just cry and let the pain out. All the pain of everything that has happened washing over me and Loki comforts me, whispering soothing words like I'm safe and how much he loves me. It eases the pain and the memory of what happened fades from my mind along with the horrible thoughts that I was holding onto. Eventually I calm down and I relax in his arms, properly relax. I feel so much safer now and I guess I needed to let that pain out. To digest what happened to me, what he did to me.

Taking a breath, I wipe away my tears as I hold onto him, "Sorry… I didn't mean to breakdown like that."

He shakes his head, kissing me on the forehead, "Don't apologise, you don't need to. What he did to you… no man should do that to anyone. Not ever. I was so scared for you… and then when I found you like that. I'm so sorry he did that to you."

I shake my head, holding onto him tightly, "It wasn't your fault… it was painful and rough but you came for me. Even though I was worried you wouldn't after you found out. I just felt disgusted with myself and gross and… I hated myself for what he did to me."

"Oh Katrina." He whispers, "You are beautiful and perfect and I love you too much to ever leave you, ever. Please don't hate yourself. You couldn't have stopped him and I know you tried. I saw the bruises and the blood… so please don't hate yourself or blame yourself for what he did to you."

I take a breath and nod, "I'm glad you broke his spine."

He chuckles, "So am I. Even though I probably should have had a bit more self-control but you sounded so scared and in pain… and what he did… he deserved it.

"He did." I whisper, "How did I get such an amazing boyfriend?"

He kisses me on the forehead, "You stole my heart."

"As you stole mine." I whisper before pulling away to look into those green eyes, "How did no one snatch you up sooner? You are gorgeous and amazing."

He smiles so brightly, "I guess I was just waiting for the right girl."

Then he leans in to kiss me but hesitates, not sure I would want him to touch me. But I meet his lips and kiss him, gently but full of passion. He kisses me back, deepening the kiss as I put my arms around his neck and he holds onto me, running his hands through my hair. It's intoxicating and I will never stop loving him. Ever.

I pull away, smiling, "You always know how to make me feel better."

"I aim to please." He kisses me, "I shall leave you to bathe… or I can stay if you want. Whatever makes you feel comfortable."

"Stay with me." I whisper, "Join me. I don't want to be alone."

He nods before I get off his lap and he heats up the water with magic before I remove the robe which turns back to his cape when I put it down. He helps me into the bath, my legs still wobbly and it stings when my private area hits the water. But then the pain fades and its soothing, it melting away any pain or weakness in my body. I turn to Loki who removes his attire and I move forward so he can get in behind me. He joins me and I relax up against him before we bathe, Loki being gentle and slow. I relax in the water with him as he cleans me and I clean him. It's soothing and I feel safe with him, I'm home.