2 Chapter 1

I'll probably start at the dreams that I want to tell to my family...Even.though it seems impossible to reach.... Some would even think I'm joking about my dream HAAHAHA but I really want to be an idol..... Yes a artist....I am good at singing and dancing..... but I don't know about my looks..... That would be a real problem but .... I think I'll still have the chance..... even though I have lots of insecurities....And would even look in the mirror... and ask...... to myself..... Am I ugly? Why am I so ugly?. Can I still become attractive?.....Can I still find my happiness?... I would often ask that... But someday I gotta accept who I am.... And they think I act to feminie and my voice...but even How much I like to change this flaws that I have... I can't.... so someday I'll just embrace my flaws...and show my beautiful scars.... ang find my true self .... So that I'll like myself better... but even though this is my dream that I am really into....I'll just follow the dream that you want for me to become a dermatologist.... I'll enjoy it though but not as much as dancing and singing but I promise to love and respect evey decisions you make for me..... It feels suffocating sometimes.... But It'll grow in me for sometime.... And my actual goal is to make you happy and pay back all the help that you given for me since I was born.... even though it won't be enough..... I'll... I'll make you happy and die with no regrets that you have raised a good son .