24 Epilogue

JESSICA

NAPAHINGA ako ng malalim habang dinadama ang malamig na simoy ng hangin. It feels so good but cold. Marami-rami na ring mga taong nasa paligid ko—spending their Christmas Eve together with their love ones.

It's really funny though. Love. I never really don't want to be attracted to that word from the start. When I entered that university, it was out of my plan. All I want is to seek for justice, for revenge. Falling in love was out of my head.

But when I bumped into that guy, my ideals was somehow changed. I even made friends, I learned on how to value others life. I learned on how to be loved or being loved by everyone.

It's been two years since that was happened, the explosion, the end of Delacroix's evil deeds, and his death. After what happened, everything was back to normal. The university was sentenced to be close and prohibited by the government. Walang mga nakumpiskang ebidensya patungkol sa mga humanoids dahil sinunog namin iyon. It's too confidential for them to find out.

It's so peaceful now and we are both separated in our own ways. They are all sticking into their own business and retired from the WU Organization and from being a delinquent (gangsters). I heard that Kai and Yuri are now dating and currently moved away in other school—far away from us. I think they are in Korea in order to pursue their own careers. Taeyeon and Baekhyun are now engaged even though they were still studying and I heard from Tiffany that they are currently leading a mafia institution. Tiffany is now settling down with her family and she spends her time with them plus she and Sehun are now in a relationship. It was a shocking revelation but I'm happy for the both of them though I am Sehun's first love and first heartbreak. And Junmyeon was madly smitten in Sunny right now after he moved on.

Chanyeol, Kyungsoo, Xiumin, and Chen are now in Japan for some missions together. They started to form a yakuza group last year because they want to protect justice and their own will. While Lay, Tao, and Luhan are going back to China to settle down things with their clan for some business probably.

But even we are in our own ways, we are still keeping in touch with each other. Our bonds are still there and stays forever in our hearts. Tsk. I changed so much that I even use some cheesy and dramatic lines. What a life.

I sighed when I remembered what happened back at the time when the university was about to be annihilated by the bombs. It's about ten minutes when the police came for a rescue. It seems someone called them kahit na di naman sila kailangan.

Nadakip ang mga nakaligtas na subordinate ng pamilyang Delacroix ng mga pulis at isiniwalat ang itinatago nila pero hindi iyon isinapubliko dahil sa pakiusap ko. I don't want the other people know about what happened since it was really traumatizing and horrible too. Besides some people may be tainted with evil idea and tried to do what the Delacroix have done. And those who got arrested are sentenced to be in prison for a hundred years.

Luckily, no one died from explosion except for those humanoids villain (Delacroix and the Student Council) and the ninety-five percent of enemy's men but there are few students who got killed by the Delacroix. It's sad but that's a real thing. Some students who got caught in trauma are being admitted to the mental institution for some mental therapy.

And then...

Napahinto ako nang makita kong nasa harapan ko na ang hospital. Masyado yatang naparami ang kuwento ko at hindi ko na namalayan na narito na ako sa pupuntahan ko.

Hmm. Marami na talagang nagbago sakin.

Naglakad ako papasok sa loob. Kapansin-pansin ang mga pamilya na masayang kumakain kasama ang kanilang mga mahal sa buhay na isa sa mga pasyente dito. Well, it's Christmas. Ramdam na ramdam din maging sa hospital.

I'm so envious...

I sighed when I remember my family. I never experienced that kind of thing—being with my family on Christmas Eve, eating together and have a happy living.  Back when I was a child, I was spending my time in learning to become a professional fighter since I am the heir of the Jung Clan during Christmas Eve, not just Christmas but everyday in my entire life. Hindi ko kailanman naranasan ang makipaglaro sa mga kapwa kong bata, I mean sa ibang mga batang hindi ko kakilala o kaya lumabas man lang para gumala. Lagi akong nakakulong sa bahay, pagod at puyat.

Father was really strict when it comes to me but he never really paid his own attention to me. He was always busy sticking his nose in his business or to the Clan kaya nakaramdam ako ng sama ng loob sa kanya. He was really evil from the start.

But despite of those evil things that he have done to us, I still love him. I admired his leadership that's why I'm doing my best to become a good leader to the Jung Clan. My family is the most precious thing that I have kahit na wala na sila sa tabi ko.

Father, Mother... I hope you are doing well kung nasaan man kayo. And father, I wish that you have already realized the worth of life.

"Miss Jung?" Isang boses ang nagpabalik sa akin sa realidad.

Nilingon ko ang pinanggalingan niyon. It was from the doctor. He was smiling at me.

"Doctor Klaus!" Nilapitan ko siya. "How's the patient?" I asked with worry.

He waved his hand and give me an apologetic smile. "Still no signs of waking up. It's been two years since he was in that state." Malungkot niyang sabi.

My mood turned to sour when I heard what the doctor said. Kung kanina lang ay masaya ako, ngayon ay sobrang lungkot naman. I thought that he was awake because the doctor called me. It was just an assumption after all.

"Okay. I understand. I'll just see him." Hindi ko na tinapunan ito ng tingin at akmang papasok ako nang magsalita siya.

"Whatever happens, don't give up. He will wake up anytime."

I smiled at him at tuluyan ng pumasok sa loob. Bumungad sakin ang namumutla at payat na lalaking nakaratay sa kama. He was wearing a hospital gown and there are bandages in his head and his back. Mukhang hindi pa nagagaling ang sugat niya. Marami ring apparatus ang nakalagay sa katawan niya.

Despite of the situation he had, he still looks handsome. It looks like he was just taking a nap. He have this peaceful face.

Umupo ako sa upuang nasa tabi ng kama at hinawakan ang kanyang kamay as I stared at him for so long.

Two years na siyang nakaratay sa kamang ito. Two years na siyang di nagigising. Two years na siyang lumalaban para mabuhay. At two years, not just two years but everyday I was visiting him, umaasang magigising pa siya.

I really really an useless person.

That's what the words I want to say but I know he was getting mad at me. He don't want me to put all the blame in n myself and that's what he wish for before he was going in coma.

It's useless if I blame myself for it, hindi pa rin naman siyang mamamatay. May pag-asa pa siyang mabuhay. I believe in him though it's hard this time.

I really owe him my life. If he didn't shield himself from the explosion, he will never be like this. It's a miracle na nabuhay pa siya matapos ang matinding pinsalang natamo niya, iyon nga lang, nacomatose naman siya. Himala rin na nabuhay ako roon ng walang sugat at galos. It was all because of him.

I pressed his warm but big hand tightly. "You are really a jerk." I said then put my head into his massive chest.

I can still hear his faint heartbeat. I can still feel his warmth that lingers in my skin. I can still smell his manly scent.

Pumikit ako at kinuyom ang aking mga kamao na nakalapat sa dibdib niya.

"Ilang beses mo ba akong sasaktan at iinisin? I'm really really frustrated to the point of I thinking on breaking the wall. Nakakapagod palang maghintay, idiot. Araw-araw akong bumibisita sayo, binabantayan ang kalagayan mo, at umaasang magigising ka. You are making me worried.."

Walang pumatak ni isang luha kahit na sobrang lungkot na ang nararamdaman ko. I promised to him not to cry or mourn him that's why I make myself stronger than before. I don't want to be a weak because I know that he's fighting for his own life, so that's why, I am fighting too.

"I just want to tell you that I hate you." sumbat ko sa kanya kahit malabong marinig niya iyon. But still, I should tell it to him. I want him to know what is my real feelings.

"I hate you to the point of killing you. Why? Because you broke our promise! You said that we will protect each other but what have you done? You ended up protecting me! I call bullshit on that. You made me feel depressed, stressed, and I even think about blaming myself. Each night, those incident always haunting me. You made me feel uneasy and guilty about what happened."

"Pero naalala ko ang mga sinabi mo sakin bago ka nawalan ng malay. 'You shouldn't blame myself. I did what I should did and you did what is right.' That's what you said."

I squeezed his hand again, tracing each lines on his palm. "That made me feel at ease. You are so unfair because you are the cause of my depression at the same time the cause of my happiness. I always treasured those words you shared to me. I always treasured our promise in my heart.."

"I've learned so many things despite of what happened. That was all thanks to you. Thank you very much, Kris. Really, thanks." I kissed his soft lips after I said that. "I have many things to say to you so please, wake up now or kahit anong araw pa yan basta magising ka. I believe in you. I love you."

Napayuko ako matapos kong sabihin iyon. Pinipigilan ko ang pagtulo ng aking mga luha. I shouldn't cry because he was not awake yet.

Tumayo ako para magpahangin. Binitawan ko ang kamay ni Kris pero...

Nanlalaki ang mga mata ko habang nakatingin sa kamay ko, sa magkasalikop naming mga kamay. Napatingin ako sa mukha niya at sobrang saya ko nang makita kong gising na siya.

"I love you too. Yo." He said while smiling.

I place my hand in my mouth and in an instant, my tears are now falling down. Niyakap ko siya ng mahigpit at umiyak sa dibdib niya. He patted my head and caresses my back.

"Idiot! You are really an idiot." I cried at mahinang pinaghahampas ang kanyang dibdib.

He chuckled. "You are an idiot too. You are such a crybaby. Ssshhh." he held my chin, making me to look at him.

"Don't cry, stupid. I'm here now as I've promised." He then kiss me on my lips.

I parted my tongue to welcome him. I placed both of my hands on his nape as we kissed passionately.

"Welcome home, jerk." I said smiling.

"I am really in home, back at your arms again." He said then we kissed again.

Love is such a mystery. You will never know what would happened next, nor who is the person you will love. We can't tell what, where and when will we experience this feeling.

And that was what I've learned while I am seeking for justice. I fell in love while I am busy extracting my revenge, my investigation, and while I was busy fighting in any evildoers. I fell in love when I was enrolled in the school full of mysteries and out the world events. A school of gangsters and sinners.