13 Chapter 13: Foolish

GABI na ng makauwi kami ni Chanyeol galing sa pamamasyal. Mabuti na lamang at si Sage pa ang guard kung hindi ay baka kanina pa kami naipasok sa Guidance Office.

I don't know what's happening to me earlier. I took off my mask in front of him. He saw my weakest side but there is nothing to be shy about because it was helpful to me.

"Chanyeol.." I called his name while we are walking in the hallway of the girl's dorm. Napagdesisyunan niya kasi akong ihatid dito since he was the one who brought me outside the university. And it's a good thing that he was one of the elites so that he was allowed to roam into girl's dormitory.

He paused from walking and face me with curiousity on his eyes. I swallowed hard before saying what I was going to say. He is the second person, next to Kris who will gonna hear my sincere thanks.

"Thank you for being here.." I said with full of gratitude.

He smiled at me and pat my head. "I've just doing my mission as your friend, Ma'am." Pabirong sabi nito kaya hindi ko maiwasang mapatawa.

"Tsk. You look like an agent now and please don't call me Ma'am it makes me feel older than you." Tsaka ko siya mahinang sinapak sa mapipintog nitong braso.

"Then, should I call you Milady?" Then he pouted and gave me some puppy eyes. How cute.

"Okay. Whatever you want." I said cooly then he smiled.

"Ehem.." A familiar baritone voice make us to stop from talking. I immediately throw my eyes towards the direction of the owner of that voice.

My smile suddenly fade away when I saw him. Kris Wu. Suddeny, I found out myself being bothered again. Something's heavy was lifted in me when I remember what Chanyeol said earlier. About Tiffany.

He looked at me with those pair of cold and serious eyes. He crossed his arms and started to walk towards my direction.

"I didn't know that the two of you are dating.." I can sense the irritation of his voice. "Why are you with him in this late hour?" I mentally rolled my eyes at his nonsense question. Binalingan naman niya si Chanyeol ngayon.

"And Chanyeol, Junmyeon wants to see you to talk about something."

Napalingon ako kay Chanyeol pero ngumiti ito sa akin. "I have to go now, Milady. My gang leader had an important talk with me. I leave the rest to you." He gave me a meaningful look before leaving me.

I undestand what he was going to imply. I know that he was telling me to confront him right now. I must face and handle this alone. I should be stronger on what will be happen next. It's time to seek for some answers to the doubts in my head.

Nanatili kaming tahimik ni Kris hanggang sa makalayo na sa amin si Chanyeol.

Nagpakiramdaman kami kung sino ang unang babasag ng nakakabinging katahimikang bumabalot sa amin hanggang sa siya na ang unang nagsalita.

"Why are you with him?" He asked and looked at me darkly. I can sense something in his voice. Something very much good to me.

I scoffed at isinandal ang sarili sa pader na sinasandalan din niya. "Sinamahan niya akong mamasyal." I replied plainly.

"Oh, really? Kayo na ba?" Tumaas ang kilay niya at nakikita ko sa kanyang mga mata ang pagkairita. It seems like I am seeing the possessive side of him right now but it doesn't matter to me right now.

"No. It just a friendly date and I needed him the most." Pinigilan ko ang aking sarili na sigawan siya at pinanatili ang aking kalmadong ekspresiyon. This is not the right time to be mad about. I should ask him first about that picture. Him together with my dead or alive best friend.

"Why? I am here so why did you need him? Don't you trust me enough?"

"I already did trust you but did you trust me too? Or is it one of your act?" Hindi ko mapigilan ang hinanakit sa boses ko.

Kinapa ko ang litrato sa bulsa ko at ipinakita ko iyon sa kanya. "Can you explain what is this picture all about? Is Tiffany was alive, Kris?!" Tumataas na ang timbre ng boses ko ngayon.

My emotions started to rise again as I tried not to cry or shed a tears about this. I looked at Kris and I saw the glimpse of shock all over his face.

"Why do you have this picture?" Kinuha niya iyon sa akin at tinanong sakin iyon.

"It doesn't matter right now! All I want is your answers to all of my questions! Tell me the truth and no more lies! Buhay ba talaga si Tiffany from the start? At ano ang connection mo sa kanya? Paano kayo nagkakilala? Niloloko niyo lang ba ako?!"

Wala na. I couldn't take it anymore. My anger for him was now rising.

Nakitaan ko ng pagsisisi ang kanyang mga mata. Hindi pa man niyang sabihin ang sagot ay mukhang nakuha ko na iyon. Shit! They were really fooling me from the start!

"I'm sorry, Jessica. I was about to tell you about this but since you already knew first, I dont have any choice but to explain everything to you."

"About what? What you will going to explain?! Everything seems clearer to me! Pinalabas niyong dalawa ni Tiffany na patay na siya at pinagmukha niyo akong tanga! Sa simula pa lang ay sinadya mo talaga ang makipaglapit sa akin hindi ba? Para mapaglaruan ako at para gamitin ako! You want to win my trust and guess what? You already win!" Unti-unting namuo ang mga luha sa gilid ng aking mga mata.

Shit. I told myself that I wasn't going to cry but damn it! It was really painful when you heard the truth from him! He was the first person whom I trusted and now the trust that I gave to him was now broken.

And Tiffany? How could she do it to her best friend? Why would she made me a fool for believing that she was died? And all the efforts that I made for her was now turned into a waste. I never thought they could really do this to me.

He took a step closer to me. "Jessica.." It was almost a whisper and he was pleading for me to lend my ear to him but I managed to move backward, away from him.

"Stay away from me, devil." Hindi ko na makilala ang boses ko dahil sa sobrang galit. Galit sa pagtitiwala sa kanya. Galit sa panloloko nilang dalawa sa akin. Galit sa lahat ng mga taong nakapaligid sa akin.

He bit his lower lip. "Jessica, please listen to me..." He even extended his arms to reached me but I slapped it, making his hand to be away from me.

"I'm sorry but I don't think I can lend you my ears after all what you've did to me, Kris. For all of my life, I believed that my goal for being here was in the right path that's why I come into this bloody university for her sake. Even though I discovered that this school was too dangerous, I managed to keep going on in the name of justice and with the help of you and your gangs.."

Pinunasan ko ang mga luhang nasa aking pisngi. "But those rightful goals was now turned into stone, all of Sunny and my sacrifice was now a waste after learning that the person that I've been fighting for was alive and kicking! And the worst is you already knew all of these and you didn't fucking tell me in the first place! You made me a dumb! You fooled me! And it was fucking break my heart!"

I know that I am being emotional and dramatic right now but it was really painful. It feels like you are being stabbed by a thousand needles when you found out that you are being betrayed by the person you valued the most. It hurts when you knew that the principles that you have been fighting for was just a mess because the person you've been fighting for was fooling you plus she had a connections with the person whom you trusted.

Kris was trying to came forward and talk to me but I step aback, avoiding him to get closer to me. I noticed how Kris was hurt at my sudden move and it makes me feel hurt too. I don't know why. Maybe it's my first time seeing him at this rate. He was so helpless, weak, and vulnerable. He was different from the Kris Wu that I know and seeing him like this was a pain in my chest.

Stop it, Jessica! He doesn't need your pity! Did you forget that he was the one alongside with Tiffany who fooled you? And now your heart is melting because of what you saw! Pull back to your senses, Jessica!

"Please listen to me first, Jessica." He pleaded.

I averted my gaze away from his pleading eyes. I shouldn't look at his eyes or else my heart will be melt and if that was going to happen, they are going to fooled me again.

Not just them but all of those people around me. My mind was right at the first place. I shouldn't trust others so fast or else I will ended up being a dumb and a mess, just like what I was experiencing right now. I must guarded my heart from now one. I will go far away from them.

"I am not that ready for hearing your explanations, Kris. I'm sorry. I just want to take a break and since Tiffany was alive, send my regards to her and inform her that I will never be her best friend, anymore.." Nilagpasan ko siya ngunit kapagkuwan ay huminto saglit.

Nilingon ko siyang malungkot na nakatingin sa akin. Shit! Hindi ko na kaya ito! I must end it here before I melt.

"And lastly, I will leaving this university. Thanks for the time you spend with me, Kris. Bye."

Mabilis akong naglakad palayo sa kanya. Narinig kong tinatawag niya ang aking pangalan pero hindi niya ako hinabol. Mas lalong nadurog ang puso ko sa kaisipang talagang sumusuko na siya sa akin. Talagang niloloko niya ako. All of his words was really a lie.

And it made me think that no one can be trusted in this world. I made a wrong decision. I shouldn't trust others so easily just like what I did to Kris. I learned on how to put my full trust on him and believes on his flowery and comforting words, on his actions that was really a scripted. I fall for his trap and gave my faith and trust upon him and now I felt like I was being betrayed by him. The worst is, he and Tiffany know each other and they are the one who broke my trust into pieces. I shouldn't believe on what my eyes saw just like what Tiffany did to me. She even pretended to be dead so that she can use me as her doll in her game. I shouldn't act like I am right just like what happened to me, I am too full of myself without knowing that I am in the right path, but the truth is I am really the wrong one.

And the last one that was the most heartbreaking at all..

I shouldn't fall in love with that jerk.