4 Time

Walang label. Walang malinaw na karapatan pero alam nyo na gusto nyo yung isa't-isa. Is this enough reason to demand time? Is this enough to tell someone that he's yours?

We have a busy life. We have our own lives. As a engineering students mahirap mag manage ng time. Pero alam ko mas mahirap sa part nya kase mayroon siyang mga responsibilities na dapat gawin na sumasabay sa pag-aaral niya.

I know he's busy but the way he make time for me just for us to make a video call sa messenger, it makes my heart flutter. It makes me genuinely thankful that despite of his busyness, he make time for me. There are times na hindi siya tatawag and I understand that. I want to understand him as much as I could. But sometimes, I think a week is too long. Although I know busy yung simbang gabi that he need to sleep late and wake up so early to prepare for the mass. I understand that. I just can't help but to overthink.

What if yung time na hindi kami magkausap mawala yung feelings? What if kapag nag-usap kami ulit hindi na tulad ng dati? I can't afford to lose another person in my life.

I badly want to demand time pero alam kong wala akong karapatan kase wala naman kami. I want to talk to him and ask how his days doing pero mas nangingibabaw yung feeling na alam kong pagod siya and need rest.

I don't know how long could I handle this feeling. It's breaking me.