5 KEEP GOING

Is everything supposed to be this hard? Is it required to feel downed and lose people along the way? Am I supposed to be this hurt?

I slept around 2 AM. I overthink. It hurts. I hurt. I was thinking why. Why me? Why is this happening to me? Why do it have to be this hurt? Why am I missing him so much?

But then, I realized that maybe it was only making me. It was making my foundation to stand firm. Hindi laging ganito. Hindi laging madali. May mas isasama pa 'to at sa mga panahong iyon makakaya ko at kakayanin ko.

I don't know what to feel anymore. But one thing is for sure, I NEED TO KEEP GOING. I need to fight life back. Kung susuko ako ngayon, kung magpapalamon lang ako sa lungkot ngayon, kung isusuko ko lahat dahil lang sa sakit, wala naman magbabago. Wala naman babalik. I need to be better. God won't let us to be in so much pain if He's not preparing us for something bigger.

I need acceptance. We all need it. Everything is supposed to fade. Everything will pass. Nothing will stay forever. We need to accept the fact that someone or something can be a part of our lives but they can't stay forever.

Matuto tayong magpalaya. In that way, magiging malaya din tayo sa sakit.

Keep going. We never know what's waiting for us in the end of the journey. But one thing is for sure, the Lord prepared it for us and it's something beyond our expectations. God is good. Fight together with Him. Don't ever dare to give up.