3 CONFUSION

Is someone out there is confused? Can somebody tell me if there is a possibility that you mixed the meaning of love and pity? That we're saying that we love this certain person but the truth is we only pity them. Is that possible?

He opened up. And the way his story get into me, it swayed me. I had this thought na "how can he do that?", because I myself can't. How can he handle such things when we are only starting our lives? (We are only starting college). I don't know what else he encountered during his Senior year but for the story I heard, he had enough and it hurts to hear that someone out there is fighting in life to survive senior year and get into college when most of us here are enjoying things that they can't. It makes me guilty. It makes me guilty that I am ranting about how hard it is that I need to wake up early and helped my Mom in the morning when I am actually supposed to while he's in a busy town sustaining his own needs. He chose to set his mind that it's better to keep his problems to himself only which hurts me more because I know how hard it is to fight problems alone and it sucks big time. No one can fight alone. But see, he survived for two years and now I want it to stop.

We can't appreciate what we have until someone out there appreciates it for us. Alam mo 'yon? Gagamit at gagamit si Lord ng tao o gagawa Siya ng paraan para lang makita natin kung paano tayo ka-blessed. Kase minsan, nakakalimutan natin yung mga bagay na binigay Niya kase masyado tayong nag-eenjoy at hindi na natin naisip na "lahat ba ng tao may ganito?", "lahat ba ng tao nararanasan 'to?". Minsan masyado tayong nagiging self-centered to the point na nakukuha pa natin magreklamo not knowing na yung iba is nasa mas mahirap pa na kalagayan.

Nasasaktan ako para sa kanyan. It feels like I want to be with him always. It feels like I want to motivate him whenever he needs one. I want to help him if only I can. It worry me a lot to know that he is surrendering. I want him bad to keep going. I know I love him now but somehow i pity him and i hate it.

Tell me, is this love or pity?