2 Can't Let You Go

Since your last encounter with Jisung, you couldn't help but think about him and what he's up to these days. You wanted to call or text him but, unfortunately, you forgot to ask for his number.

You were at the same coffee shop, hoping you'd see Jisung there again. After a few hours of waiting and writing, you were done with whatever you were writing and gave up waiting for him.

As you were leaving, you bumped into a stranger, his figure was a bit short, still taller than you but nowhere near the height of Jisung. The unexpected interaction caused you to drop your notebook and a few pens. "Oh- sorry..." the stranger said apologetically as you did your best to pick up your items to place them in your bag as the stranger helped you with your stuff, "it's fine" you said quietly, audible enough for the stranger to hear, getting a smile from him.

You closed your bag, nodded and mouthed the words "thank you" to the stranger while still being on the ground. You look up and see the person you were wanting to see.

Park Jisung.

"Jisung?" You stood up as he left his gaze from his phone to you, "Y/N?" he questioned, "hey, Y/N! It's so nice to see you again!" he then chuckled as he pulled you in for a hug while the stranger looked at you both before he fake coughed, "mind introducing us, Jisung?" he suggested.

"O-oh, yeah" Jisung stuttered while letting you go but still holding you close, "Y/N, I want you to meet my friends, but let's all grab a seat first and order our drinks" Jisung insisted.

There were five of them, including Jisung. Jisung was noticeably taller than the other four people, but that guy you just bumped into was really noticeably short. You, on the other hand, was still shorter than all five of the guys. No surprise there, really.

Four of them searched for seats for six of you while you and Jisung ordered their drinks after asking the other boys.

As you and Jisung got in line, you both were silent, you were both trying to find something to talk about. The line moved a few times until you broke the silence, "how are you, Sungie?" you questioned him, getting his attention and early a hum from him. "How are you, Jisung?" you repeated, "I'm okay, I guess...how about you, Y/N?" he repeated the question to you, "I'm fine too…" Another moment of silence came your way as the line moved; you got closer and closer to the counter.

"Hi, welcome to (coffee shop name), how may I help you?" The worker said with false cheerfulness. Jisung said of the drinks of his friends, the worker repeated in the same false cheerfulness tone as he did before.

You and Jisung waited wherever they were serving the drinks in awkward silence. You attempted to conversate with him again, only for him to respond in hums or one-word responses. You tried again, not wanting to be ignored this time, "Jisung, what is up with you?!" you snapped, causing him to flinch at your sudden change in attitude and tone, "wha-what do you me-mean?" he stuttered, "you've been ignoring me, Jisung, that's what I mean" you assumed, "I-I haven't Y/N…" Jisung murmured, "Jisung…" you faked sympathy, "yes, you have!" you then accused him, "order for Park Jisung?" another worker announced your friend's name, giving him an opportunity to escape your sudden rage.

You and Jisung then walked up to his friends, holding their drinks. "So, I'm Renjun, Hwang Renjun, I'm sort of like the leader here" the short stranger then introduced himself as you and Jisung say on the seats the guys saved for the both of you.

The seats were right next to each other which wasn't helping your current situation with him.

Everyone kind of looked at Renjun when he said he was sort of the leader, earning a laugh from another one of them, "the leader? Hyung, I'm the leader of this group" he informed us, "I'm Jeno by the way" he stood up to shake your hand as a gesture and you hesitantly shook his hand and yours. "I'm Chenle. And don't believe any of them, neither of them are the leader" Chenle verified, "and plus; Mark hyung's coming back to this hell of a group" he added. Another one of them spoke, "I'm Na Jaemin" he just said while drinking his americano.

After they introduced themselves, you didn't know what to do, really. "I'm Y/N…" you stuttered for some reason. "Nice to meet you Y/N, so you must be Jisung's…" Renjun waited for you to finish his sentence, "he's my childhood best friend, we've been together since birth…" you presented, "really? You sure you aren't…dating?" Renjun guessed, "uh, n-no, we aren't" you stuttered.

"Y/N" Jisung said quietly, you hummed in response, "wanna hangout?" Jisung asked, "but your friends, Jisung" you then protested, "don't worry about them" he reassured you before turning his head to his members, "hey, um, guys. Me and Y/N are going to hangout for a bit, is that okay?" Jisung hesitated to ask, "can I go?" You turn your head to whoever spoke; it was Chenle, "Y/N, is that okay with you?" Jisung quickly turned to ask you quietly as you answered with a nod, "yeah, sure hyung" Jisung agreed, "um, hyung-" he stopped, "can we go?" He then repeated, "sure, just remember to come home early, okay?" Jeno required, "o-okay hyung" Jisung was embarrassed to let you see how his members baby him.

Jisung grabbed your wrist and brought you outside with Chenle following you both, "Y/N-" he paused, "-I'm sorry for how I was at the line, I just-" another pause, "-I just really don't know how to cope with being around you and my members" Jisung admitted as Chenle got to you two, "hey, wait up for me" Chenle faked a cheerful tone. Jisung looked up at his member and then at you before saying, "we'll discuss this later…"

You, Jisung, and Chenle were finding a hangout place while you and Chenle had a conversation, Jisung just wasn't having it but decided to try to stay calm.

Jisung has liked you for eight years, you never really brought up that conversation with him. You, on the other hand, were completely oblivious about this whole thing, your feelings are there but you just sort of ignore them in fear of you being rejected by him.

You three found your way at the arcade, again. Chenle grabbed your wrist and 'forced' you to play with him. Jisung, watching you and Chenle, got really jealous, "that's my best friend, get your hands off her, hyung" Jisung thought. He decided to play some games by himself to distract him from his feelings, but since the arcade was empty, he couldn't help but hear you and Chenle's laugh.

He pressed the buttons harder and harder as his jealousy started to resurface, he loved you, but seeing you so happy with Chenle just breaks him. He wanted you to be happy, yes, but he wanted to make you happy. He wanted to be the cause of your euphoria. He wanted to not just be your best friend, but his girlfriend. His lover. His press on the buttons would have broken the game, but he luckily didn't. Jisung lost whatever game he was playing, earning Chenle's attention, "Jisung poop hands!" Chenle teased Jisung as he found a seat near you and Chenle, "hey, hyung" Jisung tried earning Chenle's attention again, "can I just...talk to Y/N?" Jisung asked, "uh sure" Chenle was busy with his game as you look at Jisung with a glare saying "don't you dare lay a finger on me" but Jisung knew you better.

Jisung found a corner where you and him could talk comfortably, you leaned towards the wall while his figure was in front of you, almost like he's pinning you to the wall, you gave off a little smirk but he didn't notice it. "Listen, Y/N- um, I'm sorry for acting weird today" he apologized, placing his arms on the wall, behind you, for support, not really noticing how he's sort of pinning you to the wall, this little action made your heart skip a beat. "Jisung," you sighed, "it's okay. I should be sorry for snapping at you back at the coffee shop" you started to caress one of his cheeks, making him blush. He looked down from being shy, but you, holding his head, made him look back at you. His hands held your arms to remove them from his cheeks and caressed your hands as you looked up at him. He pulled you in for a hug only for Chenle to disturb you, "hey Y/N! Up for another game?" Chenle teased, you looked up at Jisung who gave you a nod while letting you go.

Y/N, don't leave me, please. I love you.