1 Chapter One

⚠️ This chapter contains suicidal references, read at your own risk and if you're not comfortable, feel free to proceed to the next chapter. Please make sure to read the beginning of the next chapters carefully for possible warnings ⚠️

That was the day and I never expected it would occur so quickly, but deep down I always wanted and waited patiently for it to happen very soon, it's like I had a mind of my own; what I was about to do was divinely tempting.

The atmosphere in the sky was sunny, with loads of clouds in the sky that carried the freshest wind from the north.

I glared down, there were so many expensive cars passing at a surprising speed, there were people walking at the speed of light even to reach the closest destination to them, did I even matter at that point, cause nobody noticed I was there, everyone was trying to be alive.

While I was trying to end all my suffering.

Would my absence make any difference?

Why would I matter at the end of the day.

I was graduated and I had nothing in life left to do, I studied for years just to find myself on the edge of getting rid of myself just like waste on land fill?

Will my spirit hunt the earth till the end of time just like the plastic on earth, will I ever really rot?

What was the real purpose in life other than to serve my mother Demeter or be just like her, I felt like every single day I was becoming worthless either to Zeus or Demeter.

With my mind still full of depressing phrases, I managed to step on the balcony, wearing only my dark blue shorts and a blue silky shirt, I was still half asleep, half of my body was in a deep sleep; my sight started to blur and my eyes slowly become watery as I looked in front of me, my long braids reached all the way past my hips rocking accordingly to the direction of the wind.

I was scared, I've tried a lot of things before this and even tho I waited for that day I still was similarly scared to when I first tried to end it all.

For months I hadn't eaten regularly it seemed like I had given up on keeping my own soul alive, I was as light as a feather that even the slightest blow of air could have crushed me to the ground right below me.

"Thou that looked at me with the most lovable eyes God could give to an immortal and with the most attractive gaze any woman would want to fall on her skin, I shall leave you and hopefully crush on my dearest mother's chest instead" I cried my words out loud and every letter burned like sharp blades on my lips on their way out.

What's passed purgatory?

The wind gently blew between the gaps of my vulnerable body Anemoi the gods of winds held me and made of my body sweat and tears.

The loud sound of the door of my apartment getting shut close made me rock with no warning and my eyes opened widely, Anemoi flew across to the other end of the world and left my body in gravity, Apocalypse, held me strongly and he made himself invisible to my eyes as his strong hands held my body and made of it uncertainness, it was a natural instinct as I flinched at every slight noise.

"Persephone!" His voice called my name one more time, as his steps grew closer to me.

Every step gave tension to my body while it tried to relax but my thoughts were tense.

"Persephone" he lowly said as he looked directly into my eyes, tears started to fill my eyes and yet again I nearly lost balance although he left me breathless.

"Hades?"- I questioned and cried out his name, I could hear his heart beating in his chest I could feel the pulse of life passing through his veins -"please don't come any closer, don't look, I wouldn't want to see myself like this and my braids have grown longer because of how scared I am" I added as soon as my legs slowly become more numb, less blood was being pumped into them instead everything was rushing directly to my brain.

"We can talk." He whispered, nearly sounding scared that even the air he breathed out from his lungs could push me off the balcony.

My heart was beating like it was about to blast in my chest, I looked at his messy dark hair that angelically sat on his forehead, the straight perfect face of Hades now turned into concern written all over it.

"We can't talk, especially when you're one of the reasons that I want to leave, we can't just talk, because when I talk to you I can barely formulate one sentence, when I talk to you I forget what I'm talking about, so we can't just talk Hades" I whispered.

"If you touch me I'm afraid I'll fly away, so please don't come any closer, okay?" I whispered sweetly closing my eyes, I felt a warm sensation growing in my chest.

He didn't say anything, he kept quiet.

I guess he never knew what to say when it was talking about my feelings towards him.

I finally made up my mind and closed my eyes shut, preparing myself to finally do what I had always wanted to do, I heard Hades' heavy breathing as I felt his gaze on my half-naked body.

"Don't!" He cried out and I let go.

Fear, I feared Hades, because I knew he'd always love another woman and not me and I couldn't live like that.

Was I drunk when I let the king of the underworld into my life and decided to be part of his unconsciously.

Was

I drunk in love?

Was I going insane when I accepted to live with him before even knowing each other?

I always feared to tell him my feelings because up to that point in my life I felt like he's feelings towards me might have not be the same as mine.