2 Chapter 02: The Lords plan

Far away from the middle of the burning camps came forth, the one who was standing with the five and led them to the victory. As he appeared to me the time stopped and in that state of time there were three people who were still moving, me, Arjuna and Lord Krishna himself. The lord came straight to me with vicious anger in his eye. His anger struck fear in me. My throat started drying and my senses started fading. I knew that the deeds of mine has put me in a position from where it was too late for me to return.

The lord in his fearsome voice told me "Aswathama stop this madness or else be prepared for the consequences" and at the same time he ordered Arjuna to call back his bramh-astra . Arjuna immediately called back his bramh-astra. But for me it was no turning back because I didn't had the complete knowledge of bramh-astra. It is said that the eye of an individual is a mirror of its inner state. Through the furious, red glazing eyes of Lord Krishna I knew that he had the knowledge of my state of knowledge about bramh-astra.

As soon as Arjuna called back his bramh-astra. Lord released the thread of time and my bramh-astra made its final lightning strike towards the unborn grandchild of Arjuna. As thunder struck, tears rolled down the checks of Lord Krishna. Arjuna droped in his knees. And with the scattering of drakness in the sky, the clouds in my mind also vanished. It was then when I realized the mistake that I made that day.

The war of kuruksetra brought nothing but disaster for both the sides. And in that moment I brought an end to the last remaining offspring of not just the five brothers but also that of my beloved friend Duryodhana. The war that was fought against the brother, killed each and every child and brothers of both the sides. And because of my pursuance of revenge I put an end to the family tree of both my friend and my foe . It was in that moment, when I realised that the feeling of getting revenge blinded me to see the consequences of my own deed.

My heart shrank when I realized my mistake and the wreath that I brought upon an unborn child who didn't had anything to do with the chaos that the war brought upon us. My legs fumble and I fall in my knees with my eyes droped towards the ground and tears falling through my eyes.

As I sat there, I remember the time when I insisted my father to teach me how to use bramh-astra. It was the final years of teaching for all the Prince's of King Dhritrastra and King Pandu. Among the five sons of King Pandu Arjuna was the strongest warrior and I felt my father always gave his first priority to him. It always made me hate him even more. In those final years my father decided to give Arjuna the knowledge of the most powerful weapon "bramh-astra". Being the son of the most strongest and knowledgeable man I felt that I should also have the knowledge of the divine weapon. I insisted him but he always hesitated but in the end he taught me how to cast bramh-astra but I didn't felt the necessity to learn how to withdraw the divine weapon. So my father took a promise from me and asked me to never under any circumstances use this divine weapon.

Now, that I have used the weapon, I fell that somewhere inside, my father knew that this day would come and therefore he made me promise to him, that I will never use this weapon. Yet, I broke the vow that I made to my father. At that moment i realized that I had made the biggest mistake of my life. And I wanted the Lord to end my misery. But, the Lord had something else planed for me.