17 The Forbidden fruit

This is what had happened. After he had knelt down and proposed to me and I had said yes we shared that passionate kiss and complemented each other's lips, everyone cheered for us and both our parents came and hugged us.

"Please promise me that… that you will forever be with me… right here in my heart?" said J.R. as he placed his right hand on his chest pointing at his heart.

"I will say it again as I once did… I will die loving only you for my heart beat for you my love" I replied, taking hold of his right arm placing it on my chest.

"Whoa, whoa, whoa…" said Trevor "you will kiss each other and also continue where you left off when we all have wed…" he said this placing both his arms on our shoulders.

"Baby, come on!" said Mercy "they haven't seen each other for 4 years… 4 years baby, just let them be" Mercy smiled at us, Trevor retreated from hugging us and went to hug Mercy from behind.

"Thank you Mercy" we both spoke at the same time as our hands enjoyed each other's company, we were inseparable.

"Ok love birds, I assume my work is done here" said Musa "and the both of you should sign me a cheque of gratitude for playing my role excellently" he bragged.

"Musa…" said J.R "I don't know how I should show or express my gratitude towards you bro…"

"…Perhaps a fat cheque will do…" we all laughed as Musa kept a serious face.

"I would also love to apologize for the way I treated y…" before I could finish my line, Musa cut it and said.

"…no! You don't have to apologize to me" he said.

"…Musa I'm sorry…" I continued begging for his forgiveness.

"…look I deserved it… you don't have to be apologizing for that… it was all part of the list on my assignment" Musa explained.

"But still even so, I had no right…" I said it in a remorseful way.

"It's ok, you just go on and be happy with my brother… just as God had planned it to be… you were both created for a purpose, please don't ruin that ok" he spoke bravely he sure had grown up and now he is still that brave young man.

Even now he does look out for us, my kids and I as he's brother is not clearly in the picture.

We drove through that cold night holding each other's hands and gazing on each other's eyes. Words barely came out; words that we could only utter were 'I love you'. We checked in on his hotel room up there in Cape Town. We couldn't control our feelings for each other, we then started to kiss, his heart was beating faster and so was mine, we both wanted to taste the forbidden fruit, our emotions were all over, they flowed freely like the waves in the ocean, like the streams in a waterfall they do not struggle to flow.

Our bloods were boiling hard, from the mind to the inner soul deep within our hearts. We were so eager to do it but even so we are now engaged it did not give us permission to taste the forbidden fruit. There are laws and principles that we have to follow but when done the forbidden fruit can be tasted. If I had never gone to France, probably J.R and I would have wedded a long time ago or even celebrating 9years of marriage life but no it's our 7th year. It beats me and also weighs me down that modern people these days don't take the BIBLE seriously, when it is the right and exact time of going deep searching for the kingdom of God.

All the laws and rules that have been set by the Good Lord people take them for granted in these days we leaving.

I'm not saying I'm perfect or any other way that I may put it correctly we ought to go back to the drawing table and take a good look at our fellow Christian brothers and sisters, I know I am not good or perfect, I have my own imperfections too like everybody else, but what we ought to do is help one another and try and live different life as we help one another as the Bible says. Our everyday lives are on the Bible, each and every single detail is stated on the Bible, it's written in black and white. All we have done is to engage in what the Bible has strictly forbidden us to do.

Luckily enough as we were busy caressing each other we ended up pushing each other away and realised that, what we were about to do was to commit a sin, whilst we know what the Bible tells us what to and not to do. I am not saying I do not sin, I do sin in numerous ways that I can't even count cause I'm also a human being I live in the flesh, I'm not an Angel but yet it is advisable that at the end of the day I kneel down to God almighty and seek for forgiveness. I so wanted to lose my virginity to him from the very first day he came to save me on that cold night. I felt wanted, I also wanted to express my gratitude towards making love to him that night, and nothing mattered to me that day.

Just the minute he walked into my life everything changed and he brought light into my life and offloaded some baggage.

"I'm sorry, I have let my emotions take over my body…" said J.R. I placed my pointing finger on his lips, oh yes my fiancé is a catch and also handsome too, has a body to die for any girl would love to be tucked under his arm. I then kissed him slowly, gosh his scent was so perceive, he was so irresistible, oh that night, brought happiness and erased all my sadness and sorrows. I held back and gazed into his eyes.

"Babe… as much as I want to… it would feel right for us both, in the eyes of the Lord it wouldn't…" I said.

"I know my love…" he kissed my forehead "all we have to do right now is to lay down on that couch like in the good old days and tell me about Grasse, what you've been doing… just tell me everything…" he said. It felt like a dream, it felt like we have never separated, it felt like just yesterday I was laying on his chest, hmm having to cuddle with him made all my dreams come true, whatever I wished and wanted that time it felt like everything was in order. We talked and talked he shared everything that happened while I was away and I too did the same.

"I feel like I am dreaming babe… I think I have to take a nap for 3 minutes…" he said.

"Seriously babe… a nap for 3 minutes?" I probed.

"Please wake me up, just after 3 minutes I just want to confirm the dream cause its really awesome, I don't want to wake up from it!" he said.

"Babe, you just said I should wake you or shouldn't…which one is it?" I probed.

"Allow me to sleep then…" he dozed off. He was definitely tired and so was I. he took his nap, I went for a shower, he was totally knocked off! He was sleeping; I slipped into his robe and went to join him on the couch. Even before I travelled to France J.R and I whenever we were together we would always cuddle on the couch, we preferred it, it's also good for intimacy, and the couch does look or is also shaped like the back seat of the car, sleeping at the back seat of his father's SUV was what brought us together as lovers.

Being in a relationship is not all about sex, it's all about submitting to one another, loving your partner everyday like the first time you've laid your eyes on him or her. Being there for each other even if, the other is on his or her worst days. Intimacy is the key to a, happy and strong relationship. How I wished to have unbuttoned his shirt that night to see his chest and abs again after such a long time, I knew that emotions crowded my mind, if anything that was to stop this crazy ideas rolling in my mind. I had to remove the blankets from the bed and place some on him before I lost it.