Recently I've been to a trauma,
when somehow I failed in a task,
and I actually sensed a feeling
of disgust, a disrespect towards
my own worth. when I was groped
by my own emotions, manifestly
my emotions got so stubborn,
that they lose my wit and initiates
an aversive feeling on my own.
I experienced a mental trauma,
as well as felt unsettled and dizzy, and almost a contrast frame of mind.
After spending some time with a
wretch in my head, I begin contemplating behind the doors
the cause for the appearance of the devil, that mesmerized
my emotions and turned them against me.
I finally concluded, that the
feel of indignation and jealousy
provoked by a failure, that were
not carrying a place of shelter within my mind, somehow entered and pushed my calm
and pacifying emotions, and
inhabited their place of shelter. and the rage and exasperation
by the act, was ultimately
walloped over me, evidently
I'm the janitor of the thoughts and the emotions.
But these are the transitory guests, and they will depart as
soon they find the another head
to reside. And being a janitor, you
can't deny entry to the guests
which initially apparently showed
up with the idea of partying your
emotions.
And as soon you get used to
their faulty acts, eventually
you will start holding the
key to the main door.
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Author's Note : This was a first attempt to imprint my thoughts to this app where I recently connected. If there will be the traces of success, then I'll be going to write some novels and stories here. Shower your love ! ❤️