6 I'm a big fan

The same eyes, the same face, the same body, he looks so much like the dream. But just his hairs are dark and short and he is not wearing that white long apparel but a shady dark suit and sky blue shirt. Even if I'm dreaming, I want to keep dreaming and if it's real I never want it to change. I just want to keep looking at him. His long and muscular arm that took Suchetan down in a blow and his long legs kicking the bodyguards in air...Oh! It's breathtaking to watch him beat them like that. He looks as handsome and angelic like all the stars shine behind him. With one more blow over Suchetan's ugly face, he turned towards me. His gaze is chilling but at same time warm. He moved to me and flowery scents from him gets stronger as he approached me. With one more step his arms held me in embrace as I felt the air rustling around me wildly. I watch the sun going down by the ticking time of his warmth. There was an immense silence filled with his ragged deep breaths and throbbing heart.

"Are you okay?"his husky voice filled all the gaps in between making me aware of where I'm lost. I pulled myself away from his arms and took my steps away from him. His expression turned blank, closing his eyes he uttered "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to... "

Although I didn't know what was happening but I gathered my senses together and replied," thank you for saving me" managing to meet the eyes with him.

His smile was the first thing I saw, it feels like summer springing. He parted his lips as to say something but closed them again turning his head away from me. I watched his back and feeling loss of words I wished him 'thank you and bye'

I turned my face back ready to leave with still lots of questions poking my head. Just as I was about to reach the doors, a hand stopped me making my heart race and the voice followed " I will drop you home, it's getting dark and it will not be wise of me to let you go alone after all that you've suffered" with his words he came closer and wrapped his arms around my shoulders as we walked out of hotel. He made a call for his car on way to front of the hotel.

Reaching home I was welcomed with lots of anger and worries. Mumma, papa, my sisters, Joey and Pihu, all were screaming at me for being out whole day and not making a call. I lied to them that I met a childhood friend on the way and they didn't let me go. I wanted to tell them but my phone got lost while shopping and I forgot to contact later. With half an hour of lectures and torchure, we finally had food and went peacefully to our respective rooms. I closed the doors of my room and cleaned myself up. I lied down on my bed thinking about the scandalous day and him. I remembered the long talks we had in the back of his car.

Getting down from the hotel, we had his dark colored SUV waiting for us at the door with a man next to it. He introduced me to him by telling that Ragga was his driver, assistant, and a big brother who takes care of him. Ragga greeted me warmly and opened the doors for me and him to get in. There was an awkward silence between us as I looked outside the window trying to analyze where have I reached.

" Hello, I'm Saar. I know who you are so no need to introduce but why were you in his room. " his voice calmed the awkwardness between us.

" I... I was kidnapped and there had been situations between us" I said without looking at him in the eyes.

" of course! stars situation" I could here sarcasm in his tone.

" but how did you manage to get in? I mean, doors were locked and there were guards outside" I finally looked at him and spoke.

His eyes meet mine for a second but we quickly separated our gaze. He smiled looking down and said" it's because I'm the owner of the hotel and the room he got you in is supposed to be my room. No matter who it is celebrity or president of country, nobody can take it except me. I had the spare keys, had already beaten the guards outside and went in to find you fighting to save yourself from him. So I had to step in, he was destined to be thrown out anyway"

I looked at him for brief moment and then remembered when he pulled me in his arms. I could feel my cheeks getting hotter. I asked him in shaky tone, " why... Why did you hug me like that? It felt like... like you... "

" don't misunderstand, I hugged you because I thought you must be shocked and the way you felt like... because I'm a big fan of yours" cutting me in the middle, he flushed looking away from me.

I was more shaken by knowing the man of my dreams is actually a fan of me. I could feel my face flushing too. " If you don't mind, may I ask you something?" I tried to act calmer while I looked at him for approval.

Looking at me warmly he replied" yes"

"What is the perfume you use? It smells like garden of flowers but too strong for any human. I guess it's to impress the ladies" I tried to keep straight face while acting sarcastic. I looked at him and he was looking at me in amusement. His eyes were fixed to me and looked as if they were trying to communicate with me. I tried to call him because I felt intimidated at his gaze. But he wouldn't listen, it felt as if he was lost. I shake his arm and he got back to his senses replying, "it's a perfume gifted by my love"

I felt a tinge of pain in my heart listening him reveal something like this. But why do I feel bad, the feeling it's different but at the same time it's painful. I looked away feeling confused at my own heart.

We both did not spoke with each other for a few minutes. This time it was my turn to break the silence. So I asked, " aren't you afraid of Suchetan, you might get into trouble. He has a bad attitude. Anyway if that room isn't for sale why did you gave that to him in the first place? "

He gave a long sigh and replied," He bribed my staff to give him the best room. Since I barely come here, they gave it to him in high price. That employ has already been thrown out along with that dirty celebrity. And about him bringing me trouble. I've already taken care of him"

I stared at him in wonder as this man has a different face everytime I look at him. A caring face, an arrogant face, a fighter face and...just him. I might fall for him if I continued like this. We both talked out to each other about lot of things. My celebrity life, my fans, my family but just about me. When I asked him about his life, he was mute. Maybe this bright face has a dark side to it too.

As my home approached, he wished me bye with a promise to meet soon. His promise made my heart tingle and joyful.

Although we had short talk but it feels like a lot. I can remember it again and again. I can listen him all day. I can speak to him all day. I just want to see him more time. Seeing him in my dreams and opening eyes to find him in reality. Those fresh scents coming from him and the words of him... 'because I'm a big fan of yours' I feel happiness again. I closed my eyes as his words echoed in my ears 'because I'm a big fan of yours' bringing me to sleep.

'I am in the mountain again. I'm walking up somewhere. I'm here to find him but I'm lost. Why am I in this dream again and again. My feet are getting all wet because of walking in the dewy grass but they are aching and cold at the same time. I'm walking and walking until I see the lights again. I am running towards the light. It's the place again. The place of... No it's the garden of lilies. Why do I keep coming here again? At least I can meet him. I walk past the lilies to the cave where I find him sleeping in the dark. I should just look at him from afar I don't wanna be caught spying on him. Wait! There's a light, somebody's coming. It's a woman. She has lantern of luminescent butterflies. She is coming to him, she smells of lilies. It's a strong smell. She is wearing a colorful gown, with a golden trail. She is approaching him. She keeps the lanterns on the side of his flowery bed and kiss him in forehead. I feel I shouldn't be here but I cannot move. "Saar,Wake up" she kisses him on his cheeks again. He opens his eyes and pulls her in his arms. Who? Who is she? Why would she be in my dreams? Why would she kiss Saar? Oh! I feel jealousy and humiliation together. I better get going before I get caught. I turned around to go but hit my legs with the vase. It broke. No way! I guess I should run.

I'm running. I'm running very fast. It's wolves, they are following me. Help me! Someone please help me! I stumbled because of a stone. I looked back and it's a shadow of a woman. She's with the wolves. Wolves look very dangerous, they have fiery eyes and sharp canines. I'm gonna be eaten raw today. The woman, she's leading them. The woman directs her fingers towards me and the wolves....wolves are coming to me. I'm dead! '

I fell down from the bed hurting the toe of right foot and knee of the left foot. I laid down confused and mindless thinking to myself what us real... The dream or right now. I must have stayed quietly lying down thinking of the dream. It was a strange dreams with a lots of twists and turns. I was just seeing Saar at first but now I'm seeing all sort of irrelevant things. After long hours of thinking I finally thought of letting go. I opened the water heater to have a warm bath when I heard sound of my mother calling me down fast. I told her to wait until I heard the similar scents of him filling my nostrils. Am I smelling things in my imagination now? He cannot be here without a reason. Can he? I quickly washed up and got into my clothes running down at my fastest pace. As I got down the stairway scents got stronger, and I saw him sitting in our drawing room talking with my father.

" Oh! There she is" my father pointed at me with smiley and teasing face.

He turned his face towards me as his smile got brighter and his eyes glittered. With a warmth in tone, he wished me'Good Morning'