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Yesterday feels like a dream! Was it when I jumped off the building or the man that seemed more like a reality? Nothing seems to calm my inner thoughts. Looking at my reflection, I see a different person today. Deep brown eyes that shows big confusion, my long and dull face that looks as pale and tiresome. I tugged a combination of blue shirt and grey skirt with black sandals and let my hair fall free down my waist as I set off for my work. I found Joey and Pihu, my best friend since childhood and make-up artist,waiting for me downstairs in my purple vanity. At my work, I had a busy day, sorting everything out with my producers and crew. Completing the last episode on my show, I sat in my vanity waiting for Joey for the press conference I called for.

" Are you sure about this, Kriya? " asked Joey as he entered vanity.

"Yes, I'm and I'm not gonna change my decision so there's no point trying." I see disappointment in their faces but I know they will understand it at last. Ever since I joined the entertainment circle, I've been living upto my dreams but now there seems to be no motivation, I know I might regret this a little, but I want to spend time with my family, I need peace in my life. It's just a break, I know I have to get back again but for now I want to leave to my fate and see where it takes me.

On my way back to my apartment, Joey showed news of me taking a break from industry flooding all the social platform and people talking about it. I was going to leave tomorrow morning and Joey and Pihu helped me pack my bags as Joey almost shed tears upset at me for leaving. It was a weird feeling, in my heart I still didn't get though. I hugged Joey tightly and Pihu, she and I were ready to go our home.

In the Airport, all my fans were with banners giving me good wishes and wishing me safe journey. I looked for Joey but he was nowhere around, maybe he was still upset of me.

"He is not picking up the calls, I guess we should leave now. We'll talk to him after we reach there." Pihu replied angrily, I can see she was totally pissed-off.

We were about to turn to go to our plane when a voice called us from back "wait for me!" It was Joey, he was running with lots of luggages towards us. He hurried as he stopped just in front of our feet, still trying to catch his breath he announced,"I'm coming with you for a long vacation. What are we waiting for? Let's Go! "

Pihu and I looked at each others faces as we wondered as to what happened just now. Joey is always unexpected though, we laughed out loud as we went our ways to plane and saying goodbye to my fans.

It's been almost 5 hours since I reached Delhi. The moment I stepped on Delhi, there were paparazzi and my fans cheering me up. I thought throughout in my mind that it will all be okay although it wasn't actually happening. We took a car from there and set off for my home. It's still 5-6 hours until I reach my hometown ,Ranikhet. Just thinking of it makes me feel so energetic. I cannot wait to meet anyone, mumma, papa, my sisters Lucky and Daisy. The green terraces, the big boulders, lots of farms and trees, mountain, rivers, lakes, the refreshing air and scent of the soil that gives you heavenly feel. It is the season of summer, time for apricots, peaches,kaafal, pears and lots of fruits to be ripe. Even thinking about them makes my mouth water. As I am coming close to my home, I can feel fluids rushing my veins and filling my heart with joy. All the happy memories rushing to my brains along with bad memories that still horrifies me to death.

I had my first love experience here that ruined me for life, crushed my faith in god and tore me apart. It took me an year to recover from those near death experience until I set my foot in entertainment circle again coming strong as I've ever been. But now everything seems to be lost; my struggle, my fame, my dreams.

Those grains scattered in time, those words are still biggest nightmare to me. " Though you are famous and I'm nothing, do you think you can cheat on me. You say their is no relation between you both except friendship yet their are photos of you going on dates with him and the way you talk to him on phone. You think I'm just accusing you of nothing. You deserve a punishment. You motherfucking whore! You slut!

A voice overlapped my thoughts as Pihu was shouting outside from window of my car"Kriya! Kriya, Are you okay? Get up. we're home."