7 7. A trap for Aslan

I surely had to make him realise that i love him and he too had feelings for me. I wondered why he talks to me everytime and shares everything about him. Mainly, he had a reason to say that he came from Saudi Arabia to our place just before college starts and still wishes to go back and is not liking anything in here. So i felt he found comfort zone in me and i could keep him safe here till college ends. I felt he found the home for his heart. He doesnt talk much to anybody in that class and the best part is that we never talk much in college. I wanted him to confess his feelings for me and wanted him to say he needs me in his life. But he doesn't understand what he actually needs and what he loves.

I called one of my old friend Aleeza, whom i considered as a love expert because she had once been in a relation for almost three years. I told her this incident was for my friend and asked her how to make him realise whom he actually loves and she came up with a plan. She clearly knew this was for me and i have a crush on this guy. The plan was good enough for me to make sure whether he had feelings for me or it was just my thought because he talks to me always. I had to tell Aslan that i love some other guy and needs support to open up my love. So one day, after college i texted Aslan,

" Hey, i have got to say something."- i texted him.

"Say na"- he texted immediately.

"I have started to develop feelings for a guy and i wish to open up to him."- i texted him nervously.

I can't wait to see how he reacts while at the same time i was so scared. If Aslan says he would help me then it's all gonna be over. I didn't receive text for a moment and then he started typing. My heart again skipped a beat and i was so worried.

"I don't want you to care for anyone like you do for me."- he texted back.

"It's not the same."- I told him.

"Well. I don't want you to date anyone now."- he texted helplessly.

"I supported you with your love and you should now help me."- i texted to make him spill more.

"Maybe. But I don't want you to go with someone."- he texted.

"Ok. I won't propose anyone."- i didn't want to make him more miserable.

Some where deep in, i was sad that he didn't say he loves me but was happy to know he got jealous and that was a good sign indeed. Two or three days passed by as normal and we continued to talk as best friends untill one evening he texted me.

"Will you be my half-girlfriend?"

"Why so?"- i texted back.

"I feel for you more than a friend but less than a relationship. So half-girlfriend is the perfect thing."- he texted back.

I was happy knowing i meant more than a friend for him but it was some what like friend zoning me and i hated that idea. I felt bad because in future he may get a girl and i would be thrown out from his life. I accepted to what he said because that was like a promotion which he gave me. We started talking a bit more different which almost had all the topics a couple would share and he started forgetting Tiza. Two days later,

"I don't want to stay as half girlfriend. I just don't like you calling me that."- i texted him randomnly.

"Why all of a sudden. That's a good relation, right?"- he texted back immediately.

"I don't want to stay as anybody's half to be replaced one day."- i told him what i felt.

"Even if someone comes in, you wont be replaced. We will always stay the same. You are my first bestfriend in college and always special."- he tried to convince me.

"If you want me then make me your girlfriend or let's stay bestfriends."- i texted him.

"Girlfriend is not going to happen because i have never seen you like that. The feelings i have for you is different. And we will never have a future."- he told me the truth.

" Future is not about the present, if you like me then lets stay in a relation."- i lost my control and confessed it.

"No, it won't happen. We won't be able to stay as a couple."- he texted.

I got a clear rejection from his side and that broke me so much. I had waited for almost a month and made all moves to realise his feelings. I felt really bad for misunderstanding him and awful for confessing it. That rejection just broke me and i had no idea how to face him. since, it was going to be weekend, i had two days to fix it all and make him come to my way. I knew he was emotionally not strong at all and there was my last ray of hope. I didn't text him for a while and then

"It's ok! if you don't wanna be in a relation i can understand. I will adjust."- i texted him

"It's not like that. I love you. But this will complicate things between us. Now we are free to talk anything."- he texted.