25 25: Feeling too much and too little

Note: Caution alert for anyone triggered by reading about panic attacks, read at your own risk. I have a put a warning note on where it begins and ends so you don't have to worry.

All through the night I was a victim to my horrendous thoughts. I have been a coward, afraid to see what was right in front of her, afraid to think of the brutality of the present and now I was crying.

I was feeling the burn of everything I had lost A.L.L A.T O.N.C.E.

My Mom...

Dad....

Myself...

Home...

Life was wiped out by one choice.... one man's decision. I still couldn't grasp the fact that he...

My hands tightened around the pillow and I tightened my eyes shut and whimpered.

I lost everything.

I felt his hand tightening around my torso from behind as if he wanted to let me know that I wasn't alone. That this night would pass away like any other and all I needed to do was hold on long enough to survive this night.

But I knew...