18 My Radiance (4)

In the first place, she's uncertain.

Kiryu and her, are they still dating?

Lila repeated words he said to her before she got on the train that day, but still found herself puzzled. Before she truly rejects Haruka, she should meet with Kiryu face to face and ask him. What did you mean by those words?

Exhaustion was finally catching up on her since she felt her eyelids drop.

. . . . . . .

The next time she woke up, Haruka is no longer beside her. "Haruka...?"Lila murmured. Sure enough, there was no trace of a maroon color hair in the bedroom. Did he leave already?

This should be normal to her already Haruka leaving. As the rumors say, he has many girls but has treated none of them especially before. However, he's been showering her with such kindness that had lead to her forgetting all about those rumors. He's never treated the others especially, and he gets up and leaves with her too. There are equally many occasions where he stays beside her.

Her thoughts broke of hearing the sound of clattering, she turned towards the other side of the room and found Haruka wearing a bathrobe sat on the couch, busy typing away on his laptop. Even from afar, she could see it. His hair is wet. He should dry it. Perhaps she was staring far too much. But Haruka's gaze suddenly met hers, and he nodded, acknowledging her presence.

Lila paused before she asked, "Work..?"

"There's an interview in this hotel at 11. So, you can relax before then."

Lila nodded slowly.

So, that means they have free time to spend with each other? Since they are always running around because of work. She doesn't have time to ask much about him even though they are still together. She wanted to learn more about him. She picked up her materials and got up.

Lila spied the space beside him on the couch and made her way over.

"Ari-chan, tell me something."

"Yes?"

"If you're going to work, there's a proper table over there."

"I know."

But, she wants to be close to him for a while. Recently, when he's working, he's been frowning a lot more. So, she wants to cheer him up. She doesn't know exactly how to do that. However, he likes it doesn't he? Being close to her. 'I want you.' If she wasn't Kiryu's. Could she have sex with Haruka? No, even then. She probably wouldn't be able to agree.

She felt his hands run through her hair, and Lila laughed softly.

"Your strange."Haruka murmured.

"I'm weird?" Lila repeated, eyes filled with confusion. If even Haruka is calling her weird, then maybe she is weird.

"Most girls would have run away by now. Why do you remain with me?" Haruka questioned.

Oh.

That's what he meant.

Why is he asking that? Well, it's true he has a bad reputation, and she knows he isn't a good person entirely. But, there's good inside him. He's so kind to her. If he wanted to, he could have forced her to have sex with him a long time ago. It would be easy for him to do that. Lila rests her head on his shoulders, and he stopped working. Instead, he pulled out a cigarette, and gently caressed her hair with his free hand.

He really is kind.

"The song you wrote for Mikami, did you already start it a long time ago?" Haruka brought up.

"Ah-huh, when we first met. I want to write a song for this person."

"And yet?" Haruka questioned. Lila understood right away, he already knows.

"If I completed it then, it would have been boring."

"Because, you couldn't get a read on his feelings, or is it because you wanted to wait until someone backed him into a corner?"

Lila laughed, "Senpai, you're understanding me better."

"It's strange for me to be the one to say this but, I don't want him to get hurt anymore."

"It's not strange since your friends. Really, I wanted to see it. How he would deal with such problems., Every couple has to go through several walls before achieving happiness."

Haruka nodded, "I agree with that, the hurdle. The wall I'm facing with you is high."

She lightly hits him and murmured dummy. "Since, when did we become a couple?"

"Not yet, in the future."

"Future," Lila repeated. The future. But she already gave her future away to someone. Someone important to her.

"Tell me... something, Haruka do you really like me?"

Haruka didn't hesitate to reply and nodded, "I do."

But, he never says it. Or maybe, it's difficult for him? Lila turned around and gently caressed his cheek. Only to have him grab hold of her hands and move them down to his clothing.

"Undo, the buttons," Haruka instructed.

"Okay," Lila reluctantly agreed, as she raised her hands towards his shirt. The entire time she avoided his gaze.

Her heart is pounding loudly again, but, this is not love? This is simply a irregular heartbeat. Was it not, the same with senpai too? When senpai first kissed her when she first called him by his first name. Her thoughts broke off as he suddenly pulled her back down on the bed, his head resting on her chest.

"Se—senpai." Lila said, startled.

"I'm still so tired. Let's sleep for a bit longer."

"Um, if you're tired." she protested, feeling his hands linger on her chest.

Haruka smirked, "Just touching a little.."

"Se—senpai, really."

He laughed, and she hits him lightly. She wants to, protect this person.

.. . . . ... ..

1 hour later

He really fell asleep. While she has the chance, she should leave. But, he looks so peaceful sleeping like this. He looks relaxed. Lila ran her hand through his hair. It's somewhat embarrassing since he fell asleep on her chest. Yet, this is the first time she's seen him looking so calm when he's sleeping. Lila decided against it. It should be fine like this. He really has been working hard. This is all; she can do for him.