53 First Love Syndrome (2)

Haruka's apartment, May 2035

It's been a while for him since he last got a fever.

When was the last time he got sick?

For as long as he could remember, ever since he entered that establishment, and contacted those people, he hasn't been sick once. If you consider the timing, it is not unusual to get sick. But thinking of it that way shows that they did something to him, something illegal. Before entering the place, he would frequently be sick.

He could only cope back then because of her.

'Haru-kun! Um, um, do—do you—love me?'

Haruka curses. Damn, what is he thinking about that now? She has already forgotten. For the longest time, he has had these memories of a certain girl playing with him during his childhood.

A faded memory. It was during a time where Haruka was still with his father. A cute girl is looking at him with blushing cheeks. 'Um, I—I love. I love…' Seriously... what is he thinking about now? It's not like it makes a difference now. It was only for a few months. And that incidence happened straight afterward, so she's most likely forgotten about it. That's right. That's how it was. And yet. 'It was you wasn't it?' That guy knew.

His thoughts broke off when he heard light footsteps. Through his dazed vision, he could make out bright blue. Hah, he's hallucinating now? How ridiculous. The girl takes a few steps closer, and her sweet voice called out to him, "Haruka."

Haruka realized then that it really is her.

"You came back, "Haruka said, surprised.

Lila holds out a bag, "Medicine. And a few other things…"

Haruka stared at her in disbelief. Is she that much of an idiot?

"Aren't you angry?" he asked.

Lila nodded, "Ah-huh. But I want to stay."

"Then, do what I want."

At that comment, she puts the bags down, but she doesn't go to his side immediately. Seeing where she was heading though, he followed.

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The doors are locked in seconds upon entering; Haruka's arm encircle her, and she tries to shake him off, but he's stronger than her. So she can't push him away. It doesn't take her long before she's crying.

"I should have just...," Lila couldn't finish her sentence because of the tears even though she's holding herself back. Though she's angry at the cruel words, he spoke.

A phrase plays over and over in her head; an endless loop of she shouldn't. This is wrong. But regardless Lila finds her arms wrapped around his neck.

"I missed you so much."

Whatever wall was between them, ever since she met with Kiryu on her birthday and broke the promise broke completely.

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"Uka-Uka…"

It's awkward after what happened earlier. But forget it. Haruka wants her. He wants her. He wants her more than he's ever wanted another person, isn't that enough? Besides…she's breathing so heavily, it's almost in sync with his. Doesn't she want him as much as he wants her?

"Wait--" Lila pulled away suddenly and stopped him.

"...."

Huh? Haruka blinked in confusion.

Lila looked down before she took a deep breath. The girl held such a complicated look in her face.

"First, we both need to eat, and also, I have to shower.."

".. .."

"All right," Haruka replied.

Is she agreeing? Or will it be the case of being limited? Regardless, a shower, huh. "Together?" he murmured.

The girl shook her head.

"I—'m going first," she gently caressed his hair.

Before Haruka could take advantage of it though, Lila already bolted towards the bathroom. With that Haruka slumped on the ground, a deep sigh escaping his lips. Damn, what is he doing?

When he recalled the way, her fingers linger on his cheeks longer these days. Haruka paused to think, for her - that's a sign of affection. Or does she go around doing that everybody? Wasn't she giving him the cold treatment since meeting with Austin Kiryu? He doesn't understand her. But, he will not let go of this opportunity.

.....

He wastes no time after she finished showering. Even though the fever was making him dizzy, he could still see the girl in front of him. That was enough. Also, something was alluring about her after the shower look.

"Haruka, um maybe you should rest." Lila was still trying to get out of it.

"Why do I have to?" he asked her. His lips curve to an amused smile.

"Haruka.."

"... Hold it, you, are you willing?"

"Um, willing?"

.... Forget it; he doesn't know why he's asking, anyway. "Haruka, I've never done this.."

She hasn't? Like this?

"I'll guide you."

He does not wait for a response. Haruka takes her shirt off first, undoing the buttons. In the process, their hands brush against each other.

"Oh—so—sorry!" Lila exclaimed.

"It's fine, quit moving around.d."

What the hell. He should take her why is he bothering with all of this? Is it the fever that's messing with his head? Haruka returns to remove the buttons on the girl's shirt. One by one. Such a slow process, he rarely bothers with this. In the next second, he brought his lips on her breast, sucking slowly. However, that was all he could do when Lila's fists suddenly collided with his face. His eyes twitched in annoyance, "Damn, again?"

"L--listen, I thought you just wanted blood. But are you actually trying to have sex with me?" It was quite cute how she stumbled over the words 'sex', so that's what she thought — what a naive woman. Or maybe for Terashima Lila, things like this is something foreign.

"It's okay to get intimate when having blood?"

Lila looked down, "I do understand it when drinking blood. But even then, the two of us aren't dating each other," her gaze turned sharp. Ever since he saw her again, she always wore a complicated look on her face. Whenever things got remotely close between them.

Damn, it's frustrating, he understands it well. He isn't anything to her; Lila doesn't belong to him. She's only using him because she's lonely without Austin Kiryu beside her. He understands all this and yet, why? Why can't he toss her away like all the others? Why is this girl so special.

Why are you so important to him.

It really is stupid. Haruka questioned himself, why does he get like this when it comes to Lila? "Ha—Haruka, um, I have to apologize," Lila suddenly said.

"For?"

Is she finally going to apologize for ditching him? Even though they are supposed to be fighting.

"Just now,"

Haruka cursed, apologizing for misleading him? No, she never mislead him. It's him who jumped at her — him who makes the advances.

Haruka felt stupid; what has he been doing this whole time.

...

It was all lost in a complete blur, the things he said and what he did to her. But after he calls her an easy woman, for falling for staying beside him. She walloped him and scrambled away. The speed she slips on his shirt and put on a jacket was terrific, and he barely had time to react as she left the room.

Damn.

Haruka would have chased after her, but he slumped on the ground. The fever was finally getting to him. How stupid. His gaze darted towards the table though where he noticed she left various items, was she angry or not? No, she's mad. But even then she still.

She's such an idiot.

She should never have let him get even remotely close.