23 I Don't Understand This Condition

"I guess to be good, I didn't go to school here."

I'm selfish and so is she. What she did to you was something she wanted, it was her selfishness. If she can be that selfish, so can I. My friend was humiliated by her. She is not good as a woman.

I threw stones. "Oh, how come it's like this?"

Fujita who heard my uneasiness immediately turned his head. "I'm sorry, Akio-san, I troubled you."

Even though he apologized, he must have been hurt because his presence was not accepted. He tried to keep me from feeling guilty like that. He didn't do anything wrong, but Karin got him in trouble, even if other people looked at him so bad. This is overkill.

"It doesn't matter, you didn't do anything wrong."

We both skipped behind this school because the atmosphere inside was still not calm, a lot of people saw me and Fujita as a result of Karin earlier. And I don't care if it's good or bad in this school, as long as I can still do what I want.

"Sorry..." Fujita lowered his head and I realized that.

Seeing him like that made me feel sorry for him, especially since he was a victim of bullying in the past. He couldn't hurt his heart anymore, his life might not be calm. This is dangerous for me. I as his friend should be able to support him.

"Hey, do you have a cigarette?"

"Cigarettes?"

I asked him for cigarettes just to start the conversation. In other words, I was trying to cheer him up.

"I don't have one," said Fujita.

"You don't smoke?"

"I'm not 17 yet, so I can't smoke."

"How old are you, Fujitora?"

"16 years. You?"

"Just like you, I am 16 years old too."

"Heh… you already smoked at your 16 years?"

"Yes. I've been smoking since I was 12."

"Wow, what a surprise. Are your lungs okay?"

Well, I finally managed to make small talk with him. This is what I want. I'm sure he will slowly forget what happened earlier.

However, when he asked, "What relationship do you have with Karin Nakano, Akio-san?" left me speechless for a while.

To this day, I don't know what my relationship with her is. She suddenly appeared and ruled my life completely. I became not free because of her and Shiva's presence in my life.

She came and walked into my life, and then just did what she wanted. Maybe you could say our relationship is only slave and queen. So, which means she's not my close friend or anything else, she's the queen that I have to obey.

"I have no idea. I don't even know what my relationship with her is."

"But she knows you."

"Yeah, she knows me. But..."

"Hmph?"

'But she robbed me of my freedom for knowing me' was what I wanted to say to Fujita, but since I had my doubts, I didn't say it.

"Well, it's nothing."

If I tell this to Fujita, he must feel guilty again. How not, his friend who was beside him was hurting, Fujita couldn't help him because he was hurting too. So, one of us had to be able to be an entertainer clown.

Even if my feelings continue to hurt, I will still think maturely while I can. I will keep smiling, making the people beside me comforted by me. Anyway, it is.

"Because of me, your relationship fell apart, even though she had been watching over you."

Fujita knew that Karin was watching me in all my conditions because of her words earlier when we were arguing in the hall of the special building. He listened to everything Karin said clearly, so he thought that he was destroying my relationship with Karin.

"Well, Fujitora..."

"Fujita, desu."

"My relationship with her is not that close. If you're apologizing for ruining my relationship with her, it's completely unnecessary. So don't ever apologize for that again."

"But… I was in the wrong for this."

"No, you're not wrong. You're just someone who suddenly gets into trouble, so you're not the cause of this problem."

Whatever it was, Fujita's mind was already shaken by this. He must have been scared since that incident. How could I not, suddenly a beautiful woman pointed a gun at him with a strange intention, namely to drive him away from me. It was certain that it would bring him down mentally.

I stood up and held out my hand to him. "Come on, let's go back there. It seems the class division announcement is in progress."

We both skipped, but we can't miss the class division that will be announced. All the schedules were already known to me, so I knew what was going on in the hall of the special building.

However, since I was already here and made friends here, I couldn't just walk away from here and decided instead to work out there. I've been sure of my decision ever since I met the students here.

"That's it!"

When I was about to lift Fujita, suddenly a voice sounded beside me, right in the outdoor field.

"What?" Fujita asked after standing up, confused by the voice.

I suddenly saw a lot of people walking here. They were all wearing the same uniform as me but wearing blue ties. And there, I saw Shiva.

A man walked so fast approaching me, he looked in a hurry with his hands clenched tightly.

When the man arrived in front of me with a face full of anger, he moved his hand towards my face.

BOOOOK!!!

I got hit by his hit and fell to the ground.

"Oy!"

When Fujita was about to approach me who fell and wanted to help me, suddenly the man hit him too and made Fujita immediately bounce to the ground.

His punch felt so heavy as if he'd been training it for a long time, and it made my lips bleed.

"Ryo, what are you doing?! I told you, we came here peacefully, why did you hit my friend huh?!"

Seeing Shiva who was walking so fast approaching the man, I felt this condition was not good.

"Shut up! This guy... this guy made the captain cry! I don't like him." The voice of the man, who had silver hair and was neat, was sharp towards me.

"Hey, you're too emotional. Just let me talk to him." Shiva pushed the man and came to me.

A lot of people came here, 9 of them including Shiva, and they all looked at me with a look as if I did bad things to them.

While trying to stand up, Shiva who was in front of me suddenly slapped me hard.

PLAAK!!!

"Ow." My cheeks hurt from the slap, so I immediately grabbed my cheeks.

"Akio, what exactly have you done to my captain? Answer me!"

I don't understand what it means. I've never been mean to anyone when I first got here because I've always stayed in my hotel room and my hospital room—no, I used to walk around a lot when I was there. But I mean, I honestly haven't done anything bad to anyone. I'm honest, believe me!

"..." I was silent while remembering about Karin Nakano since I met her.

"Why can you make her cry, huh? It's the first time I've seen her cry. What did you do to her, huh?!"

Shiva kept on blabbering while I was remembering my mistake to Karin Nakano.

"You know, she kept crying clutching her chest. She always said, "Why? Why does my heart hurt so much? Uh, why am I even crying? Why do I feel that I am wrong? Does my heart keep hurting while doing that to Akio-kun? What happened?" while in the hall. We saw her like that and came straight here looking for you. Actually, what have you done to my captain, huh?!"

I don't understand any of this at all. I never did anything bad to her, but she was the one who did bad to me. So, what am I to blame for? And, why did I get hit by that guy?

"Akio-san… I… gleeked." Fujita suddenly fainted near me. He couldn't withstand the blow from the man earlier. His punch did hurt, but I can still endure it, unlike Fujita.

PLAAAKK!!! Shiva slapped me again while I was silent.

"Answer me!"

I couldn't answer, because I didn't know what I had done to Karin, but she forced me to answer.

"Since that incident at the hospital, the captain has changed. She had time to smile. What's with all this? Why is she smiling at you, huh?"

"I don't know either, don't ask me."

The man suddenly moved so fast and suddenly appeared behind me while thrusting a knife at my neck.

"Quickly answer, what did you do to the captain, or you die here."

He threatened me, I was forced to answer. They're all crazy. I'm just an innocent human, but they easily threaten me. Actually, what have I done? Why am I in trouble here? Why has my life completely changed?

"Hey Ryo, I told you not to act with emotion. Let me handle this." Shiva pushed the man named Ryo back. I breathed a sigh of relief that Shiva put my life in no more danger. My heart was beating fast earlier, I was almost scared because of this earlier.

"Huff..."

"Akio, answer quickly, what did you do to my captain?!"

I kept thinking, but my brain couldn't find the answer. This condition is very funny to understand for me.

"Captain..."

"Captain..."

Hearing that voice, the voice of those behind Shiva, I immediately looked at them and saw Karin Nakano walking towards me.

Shiva stood up and turned towards Karin. "Captain, why are you even here?"

"Akio-kun..."

Karin's face looks so limp and sad, doesn't seem in good condition. When she called my name earlier it felt so soft to my ears. She was sad, that was obvious. But sad for what?

They immediately approached Karin and talked to her. But strangely, Karin looked at me with her limp face.

"Akio-kun… how come you…" Karin suddenly burst into tears as she spoke in denial. "Akio-kun… I…"

Sensing that there would be trouble here and I was having trouble with her too for embarrassing Fujita in front of so many people, I immediately stood up, dragged Fujita, then fled behind.

"Woaaahhh… this school isn't right. I have to stay away from them."

"Hey, Akio!" shouted Shiva, realizing I was running away from them.

"Akio-kun… why are you running from me instead?" Karin held her chest while looking at me who was running away from her.

I looked back and saw Karin's face once again. And that's when I remembered that I had her body pierced while helping her at the hospital.

"Ah. Actually, what have I done to her that she can be like that?" I said, continuing to drag Fujita while running. "Woaaahhh… hold on, Fujitora!"

"Fujita, desu," Fujita said, regaining consciousness for a moment then fainting again.