26 Losing It 2

<WARNING! BRAINWAVES WAVERING FROM RECOMMENDED REQUIRED!>

<WARNING! SIGNS OF LOSING SELF>

The system was blaring in my mind, but in comparison to this-

Ahhhh!

Compared to this feeling, it was but a triviality. Simply put, it was background noise I just overlooked.

Opening my mouth, I released a scream of despair.

The sound was a bone-chilling wail – those that heard could not help but freeze as terror filled their entire being.

"I don't wanna die! I don't wanna die, I don't wanna DIE!" I intoned, exploding into a roar at the final word.

So this was how it felt to feel – to dread death?

Utter despair, as your mind is slowly lost from being eaten alive?

Each limb is torn from its place... As you scream in despair but no one is there to save you?

Why couldn't I let the young one die?

Wasn't it food... Why couldn't I just kill it and save myself from this torture?

I wish to live, grow old with my one and only, bouncing my grandchildren on my knees and smiling.

Who didn't want that?

Who had no desire to pass on their genes and watch them grow up and produce their own?

I shook my head to clear it, getting a grip of myself. I wanted all of those things. If I died now – once again – won't my sister, who is reincarnated somewhere else like I am – find a way to beat me up?

So… I want all of those things.

I wish to live.

I...

I want it all!

"I wish to live! " With those words said I reacted with a swing of my hand. I struck out and jumped as high as I could, using that to look around, quickly scanning my surroundings.

Finding the young, I approached swinging and dodging. Finally closer, I reached out, grabbing it. Moving as quickly as I could, I ignored its cries.

Almost to the edge, I felt elated. Since entering the water nothing bad had occurred; everything before was just me being paranoid. I'm safe. Lifting the young I flung it into the forest, releasing a sigh of relief but – it appeared this was short-lived. I felt jaws close around me suddenly.

A cryptic laugh escaped my lips.

I laughed, hands clenched into fists at my sides, I continued to laugh, tears pooling in my crescent moon shaped eyes before descending, down my cheek, down my sharp jawline…

Mucin coated my form, I felt my body begin to slowly break down, repairing, breaking down...again, repairing and breaking down repeating this process periodically.

"I had been so close right?"

<<yes, yes we were close>>

"So, self …why?"

<<why? >>

"I... I... I... I-"

Despairing, I mumbled to myself, failing to realise that there was something buried in the recesses of my mind that was awakening.

Gazing desperately, scanning my surroundings, I felt a spark of joy locating a tooth that had yet to be broken down.

Trembling, I then began to swing my hand crazily in an attempt to escape, cutting this creature from the inside, losing it.

"I couldn't... I couldn't... I'm going... To... I.. Can't.."

Slashing, I stuttered. My vision had dulled to a sort of blue.

"I DON'T WANNA DIE! I REFUSE TO DIE!"

<WARNING, BREAKING DOWN OF REASON, WARNING, BRAINWAVES...>

The system blared in my head; I twitched, but I could not give in to the constant shocks it repeatedly produced, trying to drag me back to reality.

"I don't.."

Slash~

Stab~

shiver~

twitch~

With a spinning kick, I attacked. Following the action with a slash going into a frenzy of blows, even though blood was covering me, even though this creature was trashing, even though I proceeded to slash, I felt as If I was going to die at any moment.

"I DON'T WANNA DIE!" I roared, moving faster.

Slash, stab, shiver, twitch.

In what seemed like days, but was probably mere moments, I finally exited through the hole. With the snow falling, I inhaled deeply, still in my living nightmare.

I felt those jaws closing around my limbs once again, the shout of a man in warning, but I had not adhered – if I had just listened to the human.

If I had just snapped his neck to release all of my pent-up frustration...

If only...

"K.a.r.m.a..."

I laughed my body was changing the helmet that had covered my head was long gone, my hair flowed around me.

It's OK, I am free-

'Are you sure Tyna?'

'Yes, we are free..'

'You... Have... Lost... It... Again'

Anyone watching me mumbling, conversing with myself would think I was crazy.

Was I?

Have I lost it?

Gripping the huge tooth in my hand I smiled raising my hand holding said tooth and began.

"Ah...yes,"

The tooth in my hand, though half my size, weighed probably twenty times my own weight, yet it was nothing now.

Climbing fully from the thrashing beast I sprang upwards, made a split and brought down the tooth, splitting the beast in two. In another move – followed by several more – I left the beast in several large chunks.

Drenched in blood and chunks of flesh, breathing hard, eyes wild, hair flowing behind be in a thick mass, I fixed my gaze on the shore.

"Freedom…" it was right before me.

"Freedom…" I'm so close.

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