Day 15

I'm meeting my friend today, we're going to watch a movie, I'm so happy!

The last couple days have been hard but seeing her always makes it better. She's my little miracle.

I love her… I really do. I wish we could be more than friends but I'm nothing… I'm just a foolish girl.

I don't want her to feel I'm a freak… I'm afraid she will find me disgusting. Oh! She's here! I'll write later my dear confident. I hope today is a good day.

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I'm back… I just got home, I'm hungry and dinner is ready, but I need to write this. I need to remember this day! We… we finish the movie and I told her… I told her how I feel about her.

She stayed silent for just a couple seconds, but it felt like a lifetime. I was afraid, you know? I thought it was over, that she wouldn't want to see me again but… she kissed me.

Her lips were so soft, we're dating now! She loves me too! She loves me! The useless average me!

She said she loves me, but she didn't know how to say it… that I'm what makes her happy just like the way she makes me happy.

I'm so happy I wouldn't regret dying today! I hope my family is happy for me too… I'm afraid.