5 Chapter five : The news
I heard this words that changed my life it was a conversation going on with every one except me in the family
“Mom, when did the doctor said she will die?” Free asked!
“Maybe next year”
“What?”
“Mom, maybe we should tell her”
“Who”
*shit* I mistakenly moved my left leg and I stumbled on the floor while making the most horrible noise ever
“What are you doing?” Mom asked!
“Water, I mean nothing”
“How long have you been there?”
“Yes, not up to an hour”
“Honey why didn't you call anyone to come and help you ?”
“I was actually just headed to the kitchen for some water”
“Get your food and take your drugs okay!” She instructed.
“Yes dear mother”
Two weeks of complete suffering, pain and hardship, I am tired and come to think of it, it's dry season and the dust on the streets are crazily terrible, I mean terrible not to talk about the way my chest irritates me with every unusual smell or odor I perceive
Wait a minute what was mom talking about?, I mean who was she talking about?, ain't it kinda seared that I was not invited in their conversation, why?
Okay clear your head Christi we don't want you to be thinking much about what happened okay
I dished my food and sat alone in the dinning table, I ate my meal and I could hear every sound I made from the chewing to the swallowing of the meal *where is every body?* I know our house is quite but I didn't think it can ever be this quiet
*what is wrong with you?* I asked my self, what is wrong with you?, these blast few days have been hell for me, falling upon falling down, how can someone fall that easily?, how?, I think I am sick, *but if you are sick, why won't mom tell you already?* I don't know, *maybe we should ask her?* neh I don't think that's the solution
I took my drugs and this time I was not lying, I actually did drink it, I stood up and decided to watch TV since I was not invited in my families's conversion today, I had to keep my self busy and sleeping was not a choice cos I was exhausted of sleeping, besides it was only 9:47pm and I can stay till twelve or something cos mom ain't letting me in school any time soon, so why the hurry
I surfed through the channels and I ended up watching show max, it was a movie I watched and it was superb I would like to tell you all about it but no, let me not spoil it for you
I was awake till 12:10am cos the movie started by 11:20pm, and every body knows it takes two hours to watch a movie in a channel that shows advert and stuffs
I was still waiting for them to start another movie as I had all day to sleep, suddenly someone came out from the study room
“Christi, you are still awake?” A voice from behind screened!
“I am going now” mitchew it was my uncle
I switched off the television set and went to the study, I had to say goodbye
“Mom, dad, aunt, sweet dreams you all, till tomorrow”
“Bye Chris” they all wished me the same as I left and went to the room I am currently staying
Different thought crossed my mind as I could not hold my self anymore, tears dropped my eyes and I don't know why, the night was very long as I did not keep track of when I sleep, how many times I woke up to relief my self, but if there was one thing I knew it was that nothing last forever, and this pain that I fell will soon leave me, and so the morning came and it was beautiful as always.
I was up early today it was 5:51am and I walked to the bathroom I took my bath as I wanted to go to school even if mom will not allow me, I wanted to do what I love and even if I was going to die, let me die while doing what I deeply believe in with all my heart and soul, I stood still for a while as things started to make meaning of themselves, from the fall to everyone caring for me, there was something fishy about this, and it was up to me to figure out what?
I finished taking my bath as I tried a towel on my body, I went to the kitchen and dished my food which I took to the dinning table to eat, I did not forget to take my drugs as I knew the implication of that, I went to my room downstairs, and I was dressed in my uniform I was arranging my school bag and then I heard mom's voice calling from behind
“Christi”
Shit my room door was opened
“Yes, ma'am”
“What are you doing?”
“Getting ready ma”
“Ready for what?”
“For school!” I said slowly as I elongate the word school!
“Oh, sweet heat you are not going to school today” she said with a light smile
“Why?”
“Cos the doctor said you need it”
“Need what?”
“The doctor said you need to rest, your body and your brain”
“What?” I was always a week child emotionally so tears was always available in my tank, and the tap in my eyes started to open, no, I guess maybe it was just linking for today!
“Don't cry it okay my baby” mom came closer as she rubbed her body with mine
“Hum OK” I said as I tried to take back the tears that were out of my system already.
“Take care okay let me get your sister to school”
“OK”
She left the room as I shout the door behind her, I started wailing and wailing and wailing with no stop, it felt like the end, the end of life the end of everything, what is wrong with me?, what is actually wrong with me?
I angrily pulled off my uniform and threw it on the bed, what a horrible way to start a Thursday I assume, oh God let this day come and be over with already, I need to be in school
I brought out my phone from my school bag as I always went to school with it, good news very one I did not have anything interesting in my phone to do except to play cooking madness which I did, what a lovely game.
I chit-chatted with Maryam as she was in school, but we were having a free period, we always have free periods we talked about different things that happened just within one day we laughed and played and talked
This was how I used up my time as it was 2:30pm when my phone reached 2% and I had to stand up to charge, I walked all the way to the living room as we were not allowed to charge our phones in our rooms I especially am the only one who obeys that rule cos very one including my both parents that made the rule breaks it every single day, sometimes they even chat and charge their phones how selfish of them
My mom studied law in one of the universities in the country but now she is a judge of a supreme court, my dad on the other hand is a politician and he did not study political science no body knows what he studied except my mom and any time I ask her for school forbm or something she says write politician, and I am twelve years old so asking him will be a big slap on my face like why the hell did I not ask him ten years ago
My elder brother in a medical doctor and he studied in one of the best universities in the world, my parents will not allow us to do our collage in our home country so we are all going abroad, he is twenty two years old and ten years older than me he is just visiting us as he works abroad now, so I don't know much about him some times I even wonder if truly he is my flesh and blood
My elder sis free is three years older than I am so she is fifteen years old she is in SS3, and soon she will be living me for her studies abroad, she is a very talented artist and has passion for it but my parents told her to channel it into law, which she agreed they wanted all their children to study professional courses which we will
Me I am still in SS1 but my plan is to become an engineer in the future, why?, its simple cos women are afraid of the course and I want to prove them wrong and my parents who still disbelieve in me because of my short comings, they think I can't make it because of my asthma, my eye defect which has eaten deep into my eyes, and my skin reactions to the sun, I will defiantly prove them all wrong by Gods grace and mercy, they want me to become a doctor but my health challenge ha made me scared of operations as I had one terrible experience once with it, it was my appendix that was to be removed the hospital was short of Anastasia and they did not tell us, if they had asked my parents to buy they would but noo, they went on thinking they could manage, it was a horribly experience for me I woke up in the middle of the surgery and saw NY inner part on the table, I was week and could not move but it was not funny as I fainted in the procedure and that's why I am still talking to you today, every since I have been hemophilia my own blood disgust me not to talk about other peoples.
"Cristin I am home"
Finally my elder sis is done for the day and back from school *nice*, well i did not expect her to come any earlier as our school usually close by 2:00pm, one hour compulsory lesson to 3:00pm but for students in SS3 its two hours compulsory lesson so they stay in school till 4:00pm every Mondays to Thursdays, we don't do lesson on Friday as we close by 12:00noon, on Fridays lesson ends by 9:30am because its a holly day for the Muslims we do our fellowship and they do their MSU, no MSSN (Muslim Students Society Of Nigeria).
"Knock knock"
Oh my God I totally forgot my aunty is home, *shit* the time is 4:46pm already
"Aunty how are you?, how was school?"
"Fine, sooo you, how was your day"
"Been better"
"Nice, gotta change be back in a jiffy"
"Ok, see you later"
I think I should buy a book and record all the things that is happening to me right now, oh yes I think I should buy a diary to record all my life's accomplishments I believe
That's how today went and the jiffy she was talking about never ended as we ate dinner and sleep and she did not come back, maybe she was tired of seeing me like this, but doesn't she know that I am also sick and tired of seeing my self like this.
Different things ran through my mind as I sleep started taking control of my body little by little, today was not so bad at all, I guess I just have to deal with this for the rest of my life, falling and falling, I have fallen down more than six times just in this past week, what could be wrong with me?, really what is wrong with me.
