4 Secret

Dear diary,

Tomorrow is a Saturday and I'm pretty excited. Mr Thomas has decided to take everyone out to the beach, for me, it is the first time....I didn't really get the chance when I was younger because of the troubles I had caused.

Last night, the Walters family arrived and it was really nice. I had fun helping them with their bags and watching Janet nag her brother although the night. Although he didn't pay her any attention, I could see how annoyed he was getting because I was watching him right from the moment I saw him.

Its not my fault, I'm the type to appreciate beauty when I see one and besides when he noticed I was looking at him, he gave me the most beautiful smile.

I smiled back but I think it looked really horrible as he immediately stood up "John, would you please show me your room?" he said, even his voice was beautiful

Mr Thomas nodded immediately "Yes, you must all be tired, lets call it a night shall we?" He said making a few of us groan in protest. But it wasn't like we had much of a choice, his words were the law for everyone.

I couldn't help but look at Roland one last time before I said goodnight to everyone.

After going into my room, I turned on my night light and opened one of the romance novels I had bought secretly last week.

If Mr Thomas found out about this, there was no doubt he would punish me like before. I don't want him to hate me more because I don't think I will be a able to take it. He has been treating me really bad these past year and it seems he doesn't care if I'm hurt or not.

I was lost in the world of the novel when I heard a soft knock on my door. I looked at the clock in front of me and sighed.

"I guess its not too late to be expecting visitors" I muttered to myself. It was just 10:30 after all.

I was surprised to see both Vicky and Janet standing there.

Both girls looked at me mischievously before inviting themselves in.

"Come on in...." I said sarcastically when I saw them sitting on my bed already comfortable.

"Do you girls need something?" I asked and soon they both started whispering to each other, how these two became friends in just a few hours....I really do not know.

I got really got annoyed when they told me they wanted to spend the night with me. Apparently, Vicky told Janet that I was good at telling stories so they decided to sleep here and get me to tell them stories all night...

I couldn't refuse because of Janet, so right now I'm currently writing with eye bags under my eyes.....sisters!

This morning breakfast was normal, John and Roland didn't come down for breakfast so I didn't get to see Roland this morning. Although for some reason I feel as if his girlfriend hates me.....I have no idea what i did wrong though. Was it because I was staring at her boyfriend? Does she think I like him?

She kept glaring at me during breakfast and I acted like I didn't notice it.....it was annoying though.

John and Roland went out to God knows where this afternoon and John bought me a new set of drawing equipments.

I love my brother so much!, he is like my best friend and like a father to me as well.

I kissed on his cheek for the nth time but today something weird happened.

He choked....I don't know why though. When I tried to pat his back he just told me to leave it and that he is fine.

For some reason I have this feeling that my brother has been keeping a few things from me.

I won't think too much about it though....maybe when the time comes he will tell me.

~My heart belongs to me alone, no one else

But my mind is filled with you, is my heart still mine?