23 Am I That Handsome?

"How...." Michelle who before this had like a billion words she wanted to say to Carlos..... now she didn't know what to say to him anymore.

She stared at the face which she knew she missed so much. He had lost weight, it was quite obvious. Michelle didn't know what to say to him anymore, she wanted to ask how he had been doing these past few weeks, how he was coping with his father's passing....how was he handling the responsibility....was is hard for him?

"Would you like to have dinner with me?.....to make up for last time?"

Hearing his soothing voice, Michelle didn't think twice before nodding her head "OK...sure"

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Carlos took her to a restaurant not too far away from the dorms. It wasn't too fancy but to Michelle it was perfect.

She stared at him intently as he ordered, she didn't even hear when the waiter asked her what she wanted and when Carlos began to order for her as well.

"Am I that handsome?.....you can't seem to look away" Carlos laughed amused at the girl's actions.

"I...." Michelle quickly looked away in embarrassment and pretended to stare at the menu that had been on her lap since they arrived.

"We've already ordered....what are you going through the menu for?..... don't tell me this isn't enough"

It was then she noticed the dishes placed on the table. She coughed awkwardly and put down the menu "I was only searching for what I will order next time I come here" she quipped and began to stuff her face.

Carlos smiled watching her eat her embarrassment away, he didn't mind her looking at his face....he actually enjoyed it!

"How have you been?" He was caught off guard by her question....how has he been?

He didn't feel like telling her what he had been through these past few weeks....things he had to do and experience.

"I've been good....you?"

Michelle stared at his face for a few minutes before shaking ahead "I understand....we don't even know each other that well....you don't have to say anything you don't want to. I've just been really worried so seeing you now...."

"You've been worried about me?" Carlos didn't hide the glee in his voice. Michelle blushed and looked the other way "D...don't take it the wrong way....I was only saying that.....that.."

"You were worried about me..." Carlos smiled watching her fiddle her fingers, it seemed there was actually someone in this world who still cared about him....it made him feel quite happy.

"Thank you....Michelle"

Michelle was quite startled by his serious tone, her heart sped up she felt like she was floating.

Is this what it felt like to be thanked by him?...Michelle couldn't stop the smile that plastered on her face as she ate happily....she was in a really good mood.

After paying for their meals, Carlos drove Michelle to the dorms although as usual both were reluctant to leave each other's company.

"So...." Standing in outside the car, Michelle stared at the building In front of them. All she had to do was walk through those doors and go in... why was it so hard?

"Goodnight I guess..." Michelle said in almost a whisper wishing Carlos didn't hear her. Carlos nodded "G...goodnight" With a heavy sigh he got into the car and drove away. Why was he tempted to just live with her instead?

She was only a temporary interest, like the rest of the wen he had been with so why?....Why did it seem almost painful to part with her every time?

Michelle watched the car as it got out of sight. She stood there for a while, trying to sort out herself....her feelings.

After climbing her bed, she closed her eyes. With a smile she recalled everything that happened that evening.

She frowned remembering that he still didn't answer her questions. She didn't blame him though, they had only known each other for a few months.

Michelle sighed, she missed him already

"God....go to sleep Michelle..... you're going crazy!"

Michelle said to herself before turning off the lights in the room and going to bed.

It was definitely going to be a long day tomorrow.