I Have My Own Reasons

" So it's clear.. I will join office behalf for lena.." Ari announced clapping her hand.. and I nodded with my head. And smile..

" I am so proud of you Ari.. " mom said to her.. and they started to talk.. in other hand.. I eat my food avoiding everyone..

I am happy that what I decided.. already lots of going on.. I don't think on all of this I will be fine to continue with business.. if all of things going on in my mind how can I will be focused on work.. so maybe what I think is best think ever..

After dinner.. we all are talking I did spend my time with my friends.. and the guys..

Keyden Michelle and dad.. we did have some talk.. most of time I feel like they are talking and I just seating there and nodding with my head.. I M not in concern that what even they are talking..

" What you say Elena... " And I snap out my all thought and look at them..

" Huh... " I said to them blinkly..

" I guess you didn't heard what we said.." Michelle said.. and I did nodded with my head nervously..

" I am sorry.. I was thinking..." I said to them avoiding looking at them .

" What you are thinking..." Keyden ask me.. that time I don't know what to said to them. So I ask them rendom question..

" Why Nickolas..." I ask them..

" What you mean my why Nickolas.." Michelle ask me..

" Yeah.. why him.. why not Noah.." I ask them again..

" Why.. I thought you and Nickolas now having good relationship.." dad said to me..

" It's not about that we are having good or bad relationship.. it's simple question that why him.. " I ask them again..

"  Why you don't want him to be your life partner.." keyden ask me..

" Why you guys asking me questions.. when I am asking something just give me answer already.." I said to them..

" When you four of are kids.. that time when we ask you guys.. and kids always said truth.. and that's why we made this decision.." dad said to me..

" Did Ari told you that he want to be with Noah.." i ask them..

" No but you said that you want to be with Nick.." Michelle said..

" I don't even remember this.." I said to them..

" So you don't want to be with me..." And this time none other than Nick himself ask me.. and he come to us.. seat front of me and looking at me waiting for my answer..

" I never said that I don't want to be with you..." I said to him..

" You didn't even said that you want to be with me too.." he said me..

" You hate me right.. than why you want me to be with you..." I ask him.. and that time I get him.. he want to said but I didn't.. he open his mouth to say but again close it..

" You already got best lena.. no matter what.. " this time Ari spoke.. come and join us.. Noah also come and site besides me..

" What you mean that she always get best.. " dad ask her..

" Don't you see that.. everyone know that I am obsessed with Nick.. but still who I got.. and everyone know that how much Nick hate her but still what she got.. " she said angrily..

" You guys are not ooky with our decision... " Keyden ask us..

" I am not okky with any off your choice guys.. if you did chose Nick for me.. I still feel that lena got best.. I don't know why.. why I always be everyone's second choice.. not first one.. " she said to us..

" What happened to you.. why you talking like this . I thought you like Noah.." Michelle said to her..

" So what if I like him.. but his not like me.. what about that.." Ari said..

" And you lena.. don't you feel that fight about this.. I remember how you said that you love Noah.. so how can you so clam about this decision.." Ari said to me..

" Or you just play with his heart too.." she snap at me.. and I do look at her.. she did Brust out front of  our family..

" What is going on can someone said.. and Ari is this way to talk with your little sister.." dad said to her..

" She is not my sister.. she is dead.. when she play with me.. I hate her.." she said loudly front of everyone to know that what she think of me.. no matter what people think..

" Why don't you have any answer for this.." Nick said to me..

" She not going to be answered this.. you are right Nick.. she is not that innocent we thought.. she know how to play shy front of everyone show that she is the one.. and than use people hurt there feeling.. she only love herself no one else.." ari said..

" Enough Arianna you don't even know what rubbish you are talking.. you are so blind by your hater.. that you can't even see your sister feeling that why she did it.." Noah snap at her..

" Stop covering her.. why Noah.. why you still taking her side.. don't you get hurt knowing that she is play with you whole time.. " Ari said to me..

" No i am not hurt.. because I know the truth.. i think you also have to give her chance to know her better.. but I guess you don't deserve it.. and I feel like hell that i am going to spend my whole life with you.. but not her.. " Noah said to her and leave us.. and I know this make hurt Ari and it did.. she did cried..

" You see what you did.. he hates me.. because of you.. it's all happening because of you lena.. I wish that I was the only child of my family.. you are never born.. I wish that you never be my sister.. " she said and also leave us..

" What the fucking hell going on.. care to tell me.. " dad said to me.. and I did cried front of them.. I can't control it anymore..

" Why you lie hazal.. I know you are hiding something... " Nick said to me.. and that make me more Angery to him..

" Why you hide things from me.. " I snap at him..

" It's about all that.. that's why you did all this shit..." He stood up and snap at me loudly..

" Do you have any idea because of that.. they both are part away..." He said to me angrily..

" Why did you hide from me that they come for me.. " I said to him.. Nnd he eyes wild hearing this..

" What you guys talking about.." Michelle said..

" How did you know.. " Nick said to me..

" So you think I am dumb.. I can't get it.. if you think that for this shit hiding this for that I didn't get it.. than you are wrong.. I do have my own way to find out so do I have my own reasons.." I snap at him..

" What the fucking hell your own bullshit reasons.. I do want to know.. don't you know trust me.." he said come to me.. and hold my hand and pull me to him..

" I don't trust you.. when you broke my trust.. how can you think that I will trust you.. and can't you trust me.. when I said ask you to tell me something which I want to know that who's about me but no you didn't.. " i ask him..

" I have my reasons..." He said to me.. and I push him away from him.

" I hate you Nick.. " I said to him.. amd leave them..

Fuck this birthday.. there is nothing good happen in this days.. I hope that this never come again.. I hate my birthday.. I never thought that on my birthday this shit I will handle it.. even get hurt by someone.. get scred by someone.. get threatened by someone.. get heard hateful things by someone.. never thought about this..

I get out from this place.. and walk where I don't even know.. I just know that I want to leave everyone behind.. I want to be alone.. I don't want to be with someone.. I just go far way from everyone..

Somewhere in point.. I feel like Ari is right.. I don't have to be born.. I never bron.. never get this life.. never had that much haters.. everyone Hates me.. no one like me.. they want me only for there use..

In middle of the road.. I didn't even know where I am going.. in suddenly I head.. car is coming.. and I didn't even see it.. when is come closer to me.. and I about to do before I got acted.. and stod here middle of the road.. and the hide my face before the car hit me.. but when I see that Nothing happened to me.. I open my eyes.. and pull down my hands. And look at the car..

I see that is inch away from me the car.. and whoever person is come out in to the car.. and walk to me..

" What the hell.. are you want to die.. " he yelled whoever it is.. and I just still can't get it what is going on.. but than I snap out when he call my name..

" Miss Elena... Are you alright..." He said to me.. and i look at him.. he is the same officer who come that time when someone literally rape ness..

I close my eyes.. and take dep breath.. damn it.. I am safe.. nothing happen to me..

" Thank you officer I am fine.. thanks for saving me.." I said to him calmly..

" You okky miss Elena.. what you doing middle of the night in this state.. if I was not here do you have any idea what will happen..." He said to me.. and i do sigh.. even rendom person also care about me.. but my own sister want me to dead.. woww...

" You okky miss Elena..." He said touching my shoulder.. and i broke my all thought and nodded with my head..

" Get in car.. I drop you in your house.." he said to me.. and i didn't decline him.. I do need him to drop me home..

" Thank you officer.." i said to him. And get in car..

" Miss Elena will you tell me you address so I will drop you.." he said to me.. and i nodded with my head.. and give him address..

" I also want to talk about your friend.. " he ask before I cut him off..

" She is fine now officer.." I said to him..

" No I am not saying this.. I am saying that your friend come after day after and bails that guy out.. and she said that it's his friend.. and he didn't do anything to that guy.." he said.. and than my eyes go wild.. what..

" What.. what you just said.." i said him again.. I don't understand what he just said.. or I just stll don't digest what he just said..

" It's than your friend come and baild him out.. she said she don't want to take any kind of report.. and she cancle all charges.. " he said to me..

" But I did give you statment right.. " I tell him..

" Yeah.. but she is the victim.. so we can't do anything about it.. if victim don't want to file any of case so.. " he said to me..

" After that do you find out why they did I mean.. " I try to ask him..

" Actually I do.. but than again someone is big one is whos under they are working or I don't know.. they close this case.. or even I got order that this case no more under my charge.. so I can't do anything more anything about it.. " he said to me.. and hearing this news.. now I am thinking that what the fucking hell that twins is hiding.. and why they did all drama.. and what they got doing all of this shit..

" But I do want to  tell you in think that.. stay away from them.. they are not good kids.. " officer tell me and I do look at him.. and nodded with my head..

" I will officer.. thanks for telling me this information.." I tell him.. same time he did park car front of my house.. I look at my house from the window.. and i sigh..

" Thanks again for helping me out.. and drop me home officer.." I tell him.. and get out the car..

" It's our duty.. please don't do things like this again.. it's not safe..  okky.. have good night miss Elena.." he said to me and smile at me..

* Sure officer.. " I said to him.. giving him last smile and open the my front door of my house and get in..

Lots of going on in my life.. lots of things I am getting know.. I don't know it's good think or bed thing.. but I know that.. more things going to know in future.. and I don't think that I will be free from this.. I am going to be more big trouble in this.. I guess..

Thinking all of this.. I get freshnup change my night suites.. and thinking about my meeting with David.. I close my eyes and sleep..