47 The Night Of Engagement { 5 }

I stared at her for a minute.

This is the first time I could really study Jennifer so closely (not counting the time that we kissed).

Her dark hair covered the side of her face and her dark eyelashes were long.

Her nose is tall and straight and her mouth parted a little.

Her light pink, slender fingers were tucked under her face and I could hear her soft breathing.

I almost didn't want to answer her, but I did. "To be honest . . . I really don't . . . hate you." I said, uneasily.

I never confessed my feelings about any girl before, because I never liked a girl this much before.

I never truly fell in love before. But, with Jennifer, I never had these emotions before and she kills me with her love. I looked away from her face.

There was a moment of silence and I thought that she fell asleep.

"I don't think I like you. I hate you from the very beginning and I still hate you. You're fat . . . heavy, you're an elephant, and you are cocky, snotty and bitchy. . . I hate you for that . . . and we are from two different worlds and we are two different people. I don't understand how we are meant to be together, weird, don't you think? Yeah, I don't like you and I still don't . . . but . . . I . . . " she said trailing off.

I looked at her one last time and I got up and got dressed.

Maybe it's better off if I sleep in another room I headed towards the door and headed towards the guest room.

I notice that outside was quieter, so I guessed may be the guest left early or I had spent a long time in that room with Jennifer.

But whatever it is, I don't care.

I sighed and slammed the door behind me and sat on the bed.

I rubbed my temples and said out loud,

"Why does it has to be so damn complicated? Damn it!"

I closed my eyes and took several deep breaths.

I guess from now on I will go my own way and she will go on her own way. I guess we just can't love each other properly . . .

But I think I'm falling for you . . .