41 Is It Love!!?? Is It??!!!! { 2 }

'GROW UP AND BE TOUGH WOMEN! YOU HAVE TO APOLOGISE AND I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU GUYS ARE FIGHTING JUST 2 DAYS BEFORE THE NIGHT OF ENGAGEMENT!' Adrianne was scolding me madly.

I sighed and frowned at myself.

'But . . . I am really sorry . . . and I feel scared, what is he going to say to me?' I thought, walking slower.

'JUST APOLOGISE TO HIM AND HE IS GOING TO FORGIVE YOU..' Adrianne said. 'But - . . .'

"Jennifer, honey, you are looking beautiful today and, god, I do love that bag!" Maria exclaimed, throwing herself at me.

I just stood there awkwardly, blinking at her.

Sunny disappeared.

Great!

"We're going to have a wonderful time shopping! We are going to find you the picture - prefect dress." Maria said, linking her arm into mine and dragging me towards the front door.

I crossed my fingers. Don't let him be there! 'OH. MY. GOD. WE JUST AGREED THAT YOU WOULD APOLOGISE!' Adrianne yelled again.

'I'm sorry, but I am really not ready and I am really scared'

THEN WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO APOLOGISE TO HIM?' Adrianne had lost her patience this time.

'I don't know, May be next time? I questioned myself.'

'IT'S NOT THAT BAD, JUST APOLOGISE AND IT WILL BE THE END OF IT' Adrianne sounded like she was going to blast up.

I breathed in deeply and held my head up high, while my heart is pounding 100 mph.

"Oh, Jennifer, I almost forgot!" Maria exclaimed, laughing at herself.

We stepped out the house and the breath that I realized I've been holding was let out.

He's not here I thought, feeling my heart slow down a little bit.

I gulped.

Just my luck today!

But I felt more terrible about how happy I felt when I didn't see him.

I knew I should have run back to him and apologize for what I said. I looked back at the house and he wasn't coming down the steps; he was nowhere in sight.

"I decided that the day after the Night of Engagement, you and Ryan, are going to take your wedding pictures!" Maria exclaimed, clapping her hands in delight.

I looked around some more. He wasn't outside the house, either.

"So, what do you think about it?" Maria asked, eyes widened, impatient to hear my answer.

I nodded, half - heartedly.

The door men opened the car door and I looked inside.

He isn't there.

I got inside, feeling my heart sink a little and relief washed over me.

"Oh, I knew you were going to agree to it!" Maria said, getting in.

I nodded, not really caring about what she is saying.

"Oh, just don't worry, I got everything ready. The dress . . . the photographer . . . the make - up artist . . . the hair - dos . . . EVERYTHING!!" I nodded. She continued on and on about the wedding.

'Maybe, he is at the mall waiting for us', I thought.

'AND THIS TIME YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO CHICKEN OUT.' Adrianne sounded completely pissed.

I sighed, 'Ok, I got it'

'WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO SAY TO HIM?' She asked like a mom asking to apologise to your playmate.

'Umm, hi, Ryan, I just - no, this makes it sound like he is a stranger.

Look, Ryan, about - no, I can't speak like that.

Ryan, I have something to tell you - no, it sounds like I am a mother.

Ummm, I am sorry Ryan - no, it's too straight forward.

MAKE UP YOUR MIND! Adrianne spoke softly.

'I sighed, Why so stringy?'

'AM NOT!!!! YOU' RE JUST TAKING FOREVER!

'Well, than, why don't you find something for me to say, than???'

'FINE . . . YOU COULD SAY . . . RYAN, I AM SORRY FOR WHAT I SAID YESTERDAY. I WAS JUST VERY MAD AND I DON'T WANT YOU TO BE MAD AT ME . . . AND I DON'T WANT YOU TO HAVE A MISUNDERSTANDING TOO. WHAT REALLY HAPPENED THAT NIGHT WAS AN ACCIDENT.' Adrianne gave a long long long apology speech..

'Hell no, I am not saying that. It sounds weird and that is so not me, if I say it Than, what are we going to do? I don't know and it make it sound like it was entirely my fault!' I rejected her idea completely.

'WELL, IT WAS MOSTLY YOUR FAULT.' Adrianne said without holding anything back.

My jaws dropped. 'I can't believe you are also going against me! I thought we were on the same boat! And it wasn't all my fault, ok?! I tried to explain to him about what happen and all of the sudden, he was mad at me. He's was just f*cking pissed for no reason and it's too bad, he has a f*cking temper! And also, I didn't say anything wrong. He was the one that said, 'You make me regret living'! And why should I be apologizing when he is just sitting around relaxing?' I took a deep breath from my long rant.

Then there was silence.

Adrianne wasn't talking back.