1 EPISODE 1

All my life, I've been carrying a dark secret in me. A secret that I never wanted anyone to know because I knew that if they find it out, it would disgust them and make them think that I'm abnormal.

I never wanted to be judged and be abused just because of my abnormality...

I have never met a man who's situation is same as me, and as I search through the internet about my situation, there are a very few cases that it was already treated as a rare abnormality case for men like me.

I had a body of a man but I was told that I could get pregnant...

I got humiliated and I know my family didn't announce my identity in public because I would only be bringing shame upon their names, so after I graduated in college, I decided to leave and I never told them.

It's been years already and I haven't shown my face nor my shadow to them.. I never contacted them.

They never tried to reach out..

Nor even try to look for my whereabouts...

Bet they're happy and fine without me in their lives

Well, I only bring shame and I'm a disgrace

I was probably destined to be alone...

" Earth to Elle? "

I fell back to my senses when one of my co-worker waved his hand in front of my face, he was looking at me with a puzzled face

" I'm sorry what? " I asked but he just laughed at me

" Carlo! sometimes I really don't get how you and Elle are cohabitating that well. Just look at him spacing out again in the middle of office hours " Klaud said then he laughed as well as the others who heard it

Carlo laughed while he's xeroxing some documents, I just glared at him but I couldn't help it but laugh too

" Oh shut up, I just finished compiling all my works so I got the time to slack off and day dream, while you lots are still suffering " I teased Klaud

He suddenly held my hand and looked at me with pleading eyes which only made me laugh even more

" Help me with the typings Elle, please? I'll treat you to lunch and dinner too " he said

I only answered him with a no but he kept bugging me

I was about to complain because he's being too close to me that it's making me uncomfortable, when suddenly a hand appeared between my face and Klaud's

It was Carlo's

" You're being too close " there was no hint of joke on his tone, it was serious

Damn that Carlo saying and doing something that'll make other's misunderstood the situation, I just lowered my head and sat back on my chair

" Klaud, did you just touch Carlo's wife? you better be prepared, if you make him jealous " Mr. Paulo said then laughed

I suddenly felt embarrassed so I just pretended I didn't hear anything then started typing some documents for tomorrow

" Won't you guys just stop bothering me and Ellie? " Carlo's tone was more joking now and he is laughing a bit, I got a glimpse on his ears and it was a red?

He probably felt embarrssed just like me

Carlo and I are friends and we share the same apartment since I could never afford to rent one just for my own. Carlo was the first one to approach me when I started working here, he taught me things and assisted me, I when I asked him if he could help me find a cheap and not too spacious apartment that I could rent, he offered me his.

He said it was so boring to live alone and that he doesn't mind living in the same house as me.

He took me in and treated me well, he took care of me and still assists me whenever I needed his help. We shared the monthly rent even though he said he don't mind not having me pay, I insisted to pay because I could never free load

In exchange for his kindness, I was always in charge with the cooking since he doesn't know how to cook.

He sucks at cooking, but he's definitely good at baking sweets

As I continue to live with him, I get unconciously comfortable with him around and we started to share secrets about ourselves...

And he, knows my condition

I felt hesitant at first if I should tell him or not, but then I ended up telling him in the end

After that he just hugged me, he told me that I should never be ashamed of myself and that I should love myself more, that I deserve to be happy, that I was worthy, and that I'm not abnormal.

He's been so protective to me after that day, whenever we have a night out and then I'd get a bit drunk from all the alcohol, he would stay concious and would not even drink too much just so he could get me home safely, cause he never let anyone to take advantage of me, I guess that was why we get misunderstood most of the time

Carlo was the one who helped me the most, he reached out when I was lost and he gave light as he spend time with me during my darkest days, he was a very important part of my new beginning....