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Everything is numb. I don't want to get up. Even with his face this close to me I have no desire to respond. He keeps trying to make me get up, but I just want to push him away. Today is not a good day. I can't seem to snap out of it.

Wtf did he just kiss me? What is he thinking? It's all I can focus on now and I pushed him away and sat up. How dare he touch me so intimately? But after calming down I realize it was his only way of snapping me out of it. It meant nothing, he just looked satisfied that I was up and walked out of my room. Let's see how long he's satisfied with himself once my brother hears about this. You can't just do that to someone, especially not after all I heard him say last night. He would never want someone like me. That's what he said, but this morning just to pull me back he kissed me. Ugh...