1 Chasing Pavements

Prologue

"Love." I heard a familiar voice from behind. I turned around and my hands covered my mouth at shock.

He's here. Nandito na nga talaga siya.

"Uhm, here." Pinakita niya sa'kin ang bouquet na hawak niya. He shyly scratched his head. A deep inside of me melt and grateful.

I chuckled. "I didn't know you're here. Whh didn't you tell me?"

I saw him took out a red box from his pockets. My eyes narrawored, suspiciously look at him.

Ayoko magexpect, baka masaktan na lang ulit ako.

"W-What.."

"From the day our eyes met, my mind never stops thinking about you and my heart would always throbbing fast when I always see you. When I started court you, and you said yes. My life is incomplete without you my love. I never felt this way to anyone, but only you. You gave me a reason to move forward, you gave me a light when I'm hiding in the darkness. You're like a moon, and I'm the stars, we're destined to be together until the end of the world..."

"Vana, will you marry me?"

I completely shocked. I was.. speechless.

I couldn't process anything right now. Is this real?

"Love, I'm sorry I'm not pressuring you—" I cut him off.

"C-Covin, I-I can't..." a single tear escaped from my eyes. He doesn't deserve me.... He deserves someone else but not me. How can I love him if I'm still in pain? If i can't love myself?

I'm so really guilty right now. It's not his fault. I'm not yet complete, I'm not ready for anyone.

"H-Hey, it's okay. I can wait.." he murmured, but I heard it. Pinigilan ko ang sarili na bumagsak ang kanina pang mga luha.

This isn't me..

"No... You don't need to wait.."

"Let's break up.." and finally a bunch of tears escaped from my eyes. I ran away to him, I keep my ears closed when he keep shouting my name.

I'm in the middle of highway at midnight, running. I'm totally crying because I broke up with my boyfriend. I broke his heart... I broke him..

I looked back and I saw him standing in the other side of the road. His tears was falling down to his cheeks, I can feel his pain.

Regrets. That's the last thing I heard when I tried to ran back to him. A four wheeler truck approaching me, and before I lost consciousness I glance to him and whispered.

"Until we meet again, my love."

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