2 Teenage Tendancy

Depression !! yes ,may be I'm suffering from depression ...thoughts like these always keep on pestering my mind .I wanted to change ,I wanted to make friends and socialize with "people " ,but something from the INSIDE stopped me , I had a feeling that I was special ,I felt like a ROSE in a garden of thorn plants .

It was my first day at work ,I was given a small desk and a chair ..I finished the sweeping work and sat in piece .my work was to take care of the bodies which come and enter the details , actually I was a bit nervous and scared in the beginning but eventually I got used to it .I had this weird habbit of speaking with the dead which freaked out the other dudes so they always maintained a distance from me.

Even though I had no friends I used to enjoy my life as others did ,to be truthful I enjoyed a lot . It was my first payment ,I went for shopping ...bought a pair of jeans and a black suit , packed dinner and came to my room, It was a full moon day and I could feel the lonliness of the moon ...I was feeling the emptiness in me , I was already an introvert but I was lacking something deep inside , I was sixteen- seventeen at that time . What was missing? I had never felt like that before, a tendency to something ... something which is unknown to me .

since I had a very secretive life with no friends nobody told me about LOVE , I had emotions but I didn't knew what was love and how it felt .

gazing at the moon I thought may be I'm missing love !! but where and how can I find it or can a boy like me ever find love ??

Or I should just stop thinking and sleep ...