21 Chapter 17- Heartless
I take a 15-minute shower and throw on a royal blue strapless dress that hugs my body tight. I look like I'm going to the damn club when really, I'm entertaining a house full of strangers.
I walk up to my mirror to touch up my makeup. Not to heavy. Aqua eyeshadow and nude lipstick. I run my fingers through my curls as they flow down my back.
I look at myself in the mirror and smile. I'm turning 22. Damn
I slide on my black heels and make my way back into the living room area. Hayden is making out with some random girl on my counter. Margo is twerking. Our guests are dancing and having a great time so far
I look up and see Khar laughing at Margo. My face instantly lights up seeing him smile. He's wearing a white tee and leather jacker with dark jeans. He's so fucking hot. Noo I can't think this about my best friends boyfriend.
Shit he sees me. His mouth opens slightly gazing. He starts walking over causing me to get nervous. How does my best friend make me nervous
He finally makes his way over to me. His eyes looks down my body but he catches himself and fake coughs
We stand in silence for a minute as I try to think of anything to get out of this awkward situation.
After the awkward silence, He pulls me onto the balcony and closes the sliding door.
"Why have you been ignoring me when I need you the most right now"
I sigh and shake my head "Im so sorry Khar. I just....you have Margo now. I don't want to overstep. She's the person you're supposed to go to now"
He takes my hand and rubs his thumb over my knuckles. He moves closer to me causing me to take a step back.
"Alena listen to me. Just because I'm with someone doesn't mean you stop being my best friend. I'm nothing without you in my life. Do you understand?"
I finally move towards him and wrap my arms around his neck as he pulls me in close to him. It felt like everything bad just went away.
"I'm sorry. You mean the world to me" I whisper in his ear causing him to smile
"I better"
I break away from his hug and start to walk towards the railing as I look out onto the beach.
"I had a dream about you and the woman tattooed on you arm. Alexandra"
He walks beside me in a hurry and leans against the railing looking at me in confusion
"What? How?"
"I don't know it was a dream. You both were on a beach. She was 9 and you were 11. She had long dark brown hair and a polka dot dress. She said it was a day before your 12th birthday"
He looks at me with an unbelievable expression and rubs a hand through his hair
"Alena how is that possible. I remember that day. She was exactly as you described. Holy Shit"
He continues to look at me like I have 4 heads.
"Wait so that wasn't a dream? It was a memory"
I'm so damn confused and scared shittless. How the hell am I having visions about Khar's past. What is happening to me
He notices me shaking and pulls me into his arms. I hold onto him tightly as I burry my face in his chest.
"It's okay Alena. It's weird as fuck but I think Alexandra is sending a sign that she's at peace in heaven. She gave the message to the only other person that means the world to me"
I melt from his words. He's right. I hear this happened to some people. But how can I see something so detailed from his past.
He distracts me and kisses my head
"Thank You Alena. You do not know how much closure you just brought me. Closure I couldn't get in 12 years. I don't know how you and I came into each other's path but I feel Alexandra had a part in it from wherever she is up there. You really are the light in my life"
I cling hard to his chest. He doesn't know what he does to my heart when he talks like this. I close my eyes and take in the smell of his cologne. I gasp and break way from his touch as I remember Margo. We can't be doing this anymore.
He instantly pulls me back in his arms. He kisses my cheek and rubs away the tear on my face. "You look beautiful"
"Don't do that" I beg. My heart won't stop racing. He takes my face in his hands and looks into my eyes so softly
Before he can say his next words, Margo opens the door and looks between us
"Good to see my favorite people being besties again" She says, hugging us both
For the first time I didn't feel weird with both of them in the same room. I'm making progress
She leans up and kisses Khar passionately. Okay I spoke to soon. I look away and clear my throat. She start's to laugh.
This shit isn't funny.
"Khar hows your dad doing" I ask to stop the awkwardness
He shrugs his shoulders as Margo wraps her arms round his waist.
"He's weak but doing better. He wants to see you"
My heart breaks knowing Don is in the hospital. I know it will break me seeing him like that but I have to stop avoiding it before it's too late.
"Alenaaaaaaa!"
Amberus is running towards me at full speed with a guy following behind her.
"Happy birthday boo!!!" She grabs me into a squeezing hug, almost throwing us over the railing. She's clearly wasted
"Amberus you had nothing better to do then to come here drunk and embarrass me and where the hell is our daughter!" Khar says as he walks up to her
"Khar it's okay, she's family" I reassure him as I try my best to hold her up
"She's with my mom. By the way that rat on your shoulder is an embarrassment, yet I embarrass you??"
Oh Shit
"What the fuck did she say to me? Wait What did you just say to me bitch wolf!"
Margo watches to much Ozark
Margo unwraps her arms from around Khar and tries to swing at Amberus, luckily Khar holds her back.
Our guests start to crowd on the balcony. Okay now this is embarrassing.
Hayden pushes himself to the front and pulls out his phone
"Really kid? Not now" I say annoyed. He whispers sorry and walks to Margo's side
"Amberus I love you but Margo is my best friend. You're in our house and you have to respect her"
She looks at a smirking Margo and rolls her eyes. I don't know why I even try
"Fine, but she is all over Khar like she won at life. Everyone knows he's in love with you and that Ghost Alexandra"
I never been so embarrassed. Everyone is whispering and saying shit I don't even want to repeat.
"That's enough, Your getting the hell out now!" Khar yells as he grabs her arm and pulls her past the crowd. Margo hasn't moved from her spot. I touch her shoulder but she yanks away
"Alena please just...give me a moment"
She walks in between the crowd and heads inside the house. Seeing the pain in my best friend crushed me
"Alright everyone thank you for coming and I apologize for that scene that just happened but it's time to go" I announce, as everyone sighs and starts heading towards the door
"My apologies for Amberus, her outburst was unnecessary. Please forgive us"
I look at a mystery man who just been standing here this whole time. I forgot he walked in with Amberus. How did I not notice him this whole time.
"Are you the doctor Amberus has been dating?"
"Yes my name is Fin. We won't be any more trouble Alena. Happy birthday" He smiles and follows behind the remaining people out the door.
I would say this has been one of the worst birthdays but nothing tops loosing my mom and brother.
Our house if finally empty. I see Hayden walking around the living room picking up plastic cups and other shit.
"You don't have to help Hayden, I got it" I try to take the garbage bag from him but he pulls it away
"No I got it, I was hoping this would earn me a place to crash for tonight"
I shuffle his hair and point to the couch
"Just for tonight, extra pillow and blanket in the hallway closet. Thanks for cleaning up kid"
"Stop calling me that" He sighs
I kiss his head and walk to Margo's room. I knock a couple of times but she doesn't answer
"Margo please talk to me"
She opens the door and stares at me with eyes full of tears and mascara running down her face.
"He loves you. I knew that from the beginning. But hearing someone else say it really brought me back to reality. He will never look or feel that way about me and everyone knows it. I was so desperate to be loved by someone that I fell for the man my best friend is destined to be with"
"Margo look.."
She puts her hand on my shoulder "No let me finish. The way he looks at you like you're the only one in the world, I tried to ignore it and just pray that he would look at me like that one day. Hopefully I would be enough to help him get over his feelings for you. Truth is im not Alena. He loves you and I can't understand why you won't admit you love him just as much. He's an amazing man"
I don't know what to say. Not once did I ever think I would be put in this situation
"He really has feelings for you Margo, I see differently. He smiles when you come in the room. You bring him happiness"
"Alena your still trying to change the subject. Stop avoiding it. He only smiles when im in the room because your there. Not once has he made an attempt to fuck me. He wants to fuck you! He loves you and You love him. I'm tired of just being a void to fill in your spot until you decide to stop being a dumb ass to realizes your feelings. I'm done"
She slams the door in my face as I'm left in shock. I never should have let them get involved. My feelings for Khar are complicated. At the end of the day I don't deserve him. Margo is better for him and I hope he knows that
I walk to my room and close the door. I'll try to talk to her tomorrow and convince her everything she's thinking it pure paranoia.
I get distrcted when I see a small square box on my bed. I open it slowly as my mouth falls open.
A beautiful gold necklace with a heart attached. I pick up the note and feel those fucking butterflies again
"To the light in my life. Thank you for being born. I wouldn't have survived this long without you. You will carry my heart with you always. It belongs to you. Happy Birthday Alena"
Dammit Khar. It's taking all of my strength to escape how my best friend makes me feel. I won't hurt Margo again
