2 Because he is the protagonist, that’s why I have to step aside. It’s not because I’m scared or anything.
[Ushinawareta hoshi]
- Lost star -
This game is a popular BL game in my former world. It is a story of Cass Bedivere, who was born with a very limited ability, which made him a disgrace to his family. His father acts coldly towards him, his mother ignores him, and his older brother pays no attention to him. All of these make him feel worthless. Despite that, he always consoles himself and faces everything with a strong smile.
And it is that smile which makes twelve men, including his own brother, fall in love with him.
As for the plot lines of the game, I know about it from my younger sister…of course, I'm not going to play a BL game anyway. Aside from being unable to read Japanese, I'm just a straight guy who has a fujoshi sister.
Four versions of the game had already been released (by which they had to include a 3P route into the latest version, damn it!). The anime consists of six seasons—not including mangas, light novels, art books, and many other things aimed at draining money from fans such as my younger sister. And for me, I had to listen to my sister going on about this game all day long. When my cute fujoshi sister noticed that I had no problem with it, she would then drag me to binge-watch all six seasons of the anime as well.
As you can see, I've never played this game before, but from watching the anime…I think I am quite familiar with the stories in the main routes!
And now…I have been reborn as Gilbert Bedivere, the owner of the immoral love route, which makes me want to cough up blood. Fortunately, Cass Bedivere isn’t born yet, otherwise if he was born when I first discovered the truth…I don’t even know if I would be able to look him straight in the eye.
I run my fingers through my hair while staring into the mirror. Although I may look a bit disheveled, judging by the golden hair, eyes that match with the hair color, and overall facial features…at least I will become handsome when I grow up! This is the face of Gilbert Bedivere, who is the older brother of the protagonist!
I take a deep breath. First…I need to collect my thoughts!
Being in a BL game, then what? Deep down, I'm still my indifferent self, even with all the gayness my sister used to rave about every day! I have to admit that having a fujoshi sister is the worst thing, thus being stuck in the BL world is not a big deal!
I have been able to tolerate my sister and secure my manhood up until now. Just by living in this BL world…I will also secure the manliness inside my mind and eventually find a girlfriend!
Especially when I have the same face as Gilbert Bedivere, let’s see if I can get a girlfriend!
After slapping myself, I began to get myself together along with my manliness. The first thing I need to start thinking about now is the relationship.
Starting with Cass, who is the protagonist. He will be born next year, which means that my mother will get pregnant this year. If I don’t want the problem to arise, then I should do anything to stop her from getting pregnant! B…but actually, I also want a younger brother...or should I let this go…
Let's skip this for the time being and focus on Nigel and Hareve instead.
My sister often said, 'Nigel and Gil are always together!', which is similar to a ship? But when the creator team released the 3P route, I started to become speechless.
Perhaps the easiest way is to stay away from this and avoid those eleven families altogether…
Even though I'm not close to them right now, I cannot avoid the encounters. According to the plot lines of the game, everyone will be sent to some sort of magical school once they turn fifteen and be able to show off their skills until the final school year. After Cass Bedivere attended this school, the sim dating stories will then begin for each route—whether it is between senior and junior, or teacher and student.
In fact, if I am confident of my manhood, then why do I have to be afraid of the 3P route or the immoral love route? Well, I have to be cautious just in case. When I was a child, I never thought I would be able to accept yaoi stuff as well as helping my sister draw 18+ doujinshi. So what's the result? In the end, my fujoshi sister always asked me to help her meet the publishing deadlines…this incident really taught me a lesson. Therefore, I won't be careless anymore!!
But now, the people I should certainly avoid are Nigel and Cass (who is still unborn). I don’t think…there will be any problems.
As for Nigel, I've already told him not to meet me, which should end well…I guess? But even if it does end badly, this will make it more difficult to enter the 3P route!
Hence, the only thing I should be worried about is this one person.
Cass Bedivere
If my mother is still not pregnant, then…
Bang! Bang!
“Come out right now, Gilbert Bedivere!!”
Loud banging noise from behind the door startled me. I whip my head towards the yelling sound that comes with the pounding sound…Could that possibly be Hareve Lancelot's voice?
What is the guy who received the most popularity doing in front of my room?
I raise an eyebrow in surprise as I can hear shouting coming from the owner of the SM route, who is banging on the door repeatedly, and it seems like the sounds keep getting louder and faster. Sometimes it makes me think about his massive strength. Likewise, I don’t want to move my bedroom only because of a hole in the door. Hm…I should open the door and let him in, I think.
I decide to climb down from my bed after having that thought. But before I can even move, the ‘door’ seems to 'fly' past my face, creating a loud noise afterwards. I slowly turn to the door, then slowly turn back to Hareve Lancelot, who is standing there with ..............................
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A foot that is still being raised in the air.
Hmmmm...
Please swear to me this is human strength, not animal strength…
What did Duke Lancelot feed his child with to make my bedroom door fly across the room just by a tiny foot of a six-year-old? To Cass Bedivere, who is still unborn, if you happen to choose Hareve's route, don’t ever cheat on him or make him mad! Being able to kick down an entire door with a barefoot at age six…what will he be capable of at the age of twenty-two?…I-I don’t even want to imagine…
At this moment, I'm starting to feel sorry for Cass Bedivere.
“Gilbert Bedivere!”
But now, I think I should feel sorry for myself first…
I give Hareve a slight smile as his expression starts to distort. Please don’t get mad. My body is more fragile than the door you just kicked down!
“Would you like to have a seat inside?”
Hareve huffs before stepping aside for someone to enter. That person is a good-looking little boy who is currently rubbing his eyes. Those round eyes silently stare at me before he pouts…as if he is about to cry but still trying hard to suppress it…
“Gil...”
Oops...
He is super cute.
Dear my younger sister, who is not in this world, despite the fact that you are a girl, why can’t you be as cute as Nigel! You are making the younger sister community cry! You also make me want to adore a younger brother more than a younger sister too!
“Gil…are you angry with me?” Nigel sniffles. “Have…ha…have I done something wrong, Gil?”
At this point, I just really want to console him in my embrace…why can’t my sister, who is not in this world, be cute like this!!
If you could be this cute, even if I have to draw 18+ doujinshi or play any games to collect information for you, I would be more than willing to help!!
Hareve shoots me a harsh glance…so I look at his feet…I'm truly scared from the bottom of my heart.
I stand still for a little while before deciding to walk towards Nigel. I hug him and gently pat his head. A muffled voice coming from Nigel says, “Gil…Why are you angry with me?”
“I…am not angry with you.” I smile at Nigel while rocking him gently in my embrace. Nigel and I have the same body size, but because he is relaxing, I can move his body easily. “I’m just…confused.”
Those silver eyes look at me like a puppy… Goodbye, my sister, from now on, I won’t miss you anymore.
“Sorry that I’m unable to tell you…” Since I’m pretty sure that if I ever do tell, I might be kicked out of the family to stay in an asylum instead, or I might even be banished.
“I’m sorry…for making you upset.”
Nigel shakes his head before hugging me tightly. His head is resting on my shoulder as he continues to speak with a sniffle. “I…I have just a few friends and they are Hareve and Gil…”
“...”
“F…for me, both Hareve and Gil are ve…very important…”
“...”
“So…please…”
“...”
“Don’t go away from me…don’t leave me…”
This boy is scared of women…he is scared to even hug his own mother…
This boy was born into a noble family…but how many people are actually close to him?
I sigh before looking at Nigel, who is burying his head against my shoulder. Then I look at Hareve, who is making a throat-slitting gesture…I guess I should shift my gaze back to Nigel.
I want to reject him because I don’t want to encounter the 3P route, but what should I do? Or should I just solve the problem by finding a pretty girlfriend? If I can find one, at least I can ensure that I won’t enter the BL world…
“For me…Gil is like an older brother…” Nigel looks up at me. “So…if you are unhappy with anything, please tell me, but don’t leave me alone. Please don’t tell me to stay away from you…brother.”
“I will never leave you from now on, I promise…”
Even if I have to die, I will never leave his side…goodbye, my fujoshi sister. I have now entered the adorable younger brother community…
