1 Life

What we do to others:

L: lie

I: ignore

F: fear

E: enemy

What we should do:

L: love

I: include

F: friend

E: explore

I know that some of these don't make sense. I know that this is not proven because I am almost a seventeen year old writing this to figure out who I really am, and hope that I can help others by doing this.

I hid my true self from the world. Lied about my sexuality. Ignored what was beneficial to me. Feared not being good enough. Made myself the enemy.

Some of this stuff I plan on explaining the next few chapters but right now I want to start broad.

I hid my sexuality because it is against my religion,it was not something my parents wanted to promote, and me being a person of trying to meet every bodies expectations, became something I didn't want to be real. I hid my sexuality from my friends and family and when asked, I would deny it.

I was raised to always help people without expecting anything in return so when every I was offered help or given a reward, I wouldn't take it, and even to this day, I don't know how to properly receive a reward without looking greedy.

I fear many things when it come to what people think of me. I am scared of being in front of a big crowd; I am afraid of being out bested, or me not being good enough; I have a fear of bees, as stupid as that may sound.

Although I am friends with everyone, I became my own enemy. I targeted myself when I make a stupid mistake in class; I always try to be perfect and make these obscene scenarios in my mind of what could possibly go wrong. I pushed my parents away because they couldn't possibly understand what I am going through.

Well guess what my fellow reader, all of this negativity found in our life (or at least for me) is that this is all just in my mind. Trying to be the people what me to be, I never had the chance to build who I really am. Almost seventeen and I don't even know who I am. This is what I can tell you about life.

When we share love with people, that is the greatest thing ever but if you have no love for yourself, there is no way that you can possibly be happy forever because now you rely on others happiness to be happy.

Instead of pushing people away, I should hold people tighter to me and be open from the moment we meet if there are new people. Yes this include building trust but with me the second we talk, we are friends until something goes wrong (which is something I will never wish).

Creating friends is the best but you shouldn't create a friend group and stay there, you should create a friend group with a space for one more all the time so that everyone feels welcomed, and not left out. We have all heard the phrase the more the merrier.

When we get to explore, we get to put more experience in our life and in our characteristic. We can find ourselves and find our talents, hobbies, and our dislikes.

Life is nothing but a test to see how we can handle these challenges. These challenges help find ourselves and being honest is the only way to get through them. We struggle because we are human. We rebuild because we are given the strength to stand back up. We come back stronger because we learn from our mistakes.

Being human is what make us, us, and there is no human that is perfect. be honest be true and never give up.