1 Laments

The emotions were too much that I thought I must have gone numb. And just when you started to believe and trust is also the time you will have to taste what it's like to be betrayed and disappointed. This world had so much to give to the point where I just wanted to die but cannot. Staring into nothing and trying to sound myself out if I'm still okay or already breaking apart. I brushed my cold fingers through my black long hair and checking if after each brush I would be able to cool my head. My eyes are already tired but there's this feeling inside of me fighting against sleep. Hoping perhaps, this one of inevitable things, I could stop. But that isn't how life goes. Just because you hoped for it, you'll have it.

Realizing how life is unfair to everybody, I somehow wanted to make the most of being alive. But what is life again? Getting my hopes up, go steady and then things just go out of control. Many say these things like 'it's just how things are', 'things like that were bound to happen', 'it is not just meant to be',or 'that's because of your past actions'. Then what of it now? Should I go vent my anger like throwing things out, swear to all the things that ticked me off? Or should I just let it all go?