1 A story

Hello to who ever is reading my diary, I recently became a god of sorts compared to the common people, and I'm here to tell everyone my life story so far.

You may ask why well let me tell you what's happened so far.

Originally we were a happy family my father was a very successful buissness man and my mom stayed at home taking care of the house my father would always come home around five for dinner.

And shortly after I would come home , we had game nights on Wednesdays and we would go on a cruise on winter,summer, and spring break.

I always told my family how my day was at Happy harbor.

Most of the kids didn't like me do to envy but they never openly spoke put aloud about me because I usually gave gifts to people because I used to think everyone liked me and we were all friends.

But my naivety was part of my downfall.

One day my mother and I one Sunday were going to church like we usually did, my mother always said if you believe and have faith in god he will save you.

So after church we started heading home we took a short cut we usually don't use and it was a mistake on our part because when we passed an alley a father from our church actually grabbed my mother and defiled her he started by groping her I rather not say where and raped her I did try to save her but he kicked me over and over again and a knife in my thigh was enough to put me down .

And the he did it all in front of me while saying things like "This is how women should be treated and used." Which I disagreed and didn't understand why he would think that.

I tried to get up after he said that too but just a glare put me in my place.

Then he said " you rich people always thinking your better than everyone buying gifts for everyone to forget what you did , acting like your just applying a bandage to a cut this is what your kind deserve."

I never thought a human could do such a thing ,all of this happened at the age of 13.

After the father who I knew was father John finished with my mother and stabbed a knife through her heart he came next to me and stabbed me in the stomach.

Then he twisted the knife the he pushed it in further then he yanked it out.

And then it hit me, I realized there is no god most humans are disgusting pieces of trash who deceive, manipulate, and use others.

Then I thought if there is no god why not become god I'll teach the world there's a cost to pay to indulge in your sins.

Then my life continues to degrade someone found me bleeding out and called an ambulance and my father came to me and asked me what happened amd I told him everything he took care of the church and the father permanently.

But he started drinking my mothers death weighed on him the stress for being the CEO got to him and so he started drinking he took out his anger on me some nights and I paid the price for what that killer did. This is a long story short there was several reasons why he does what he does and I pity him but soon I'll help him reach salvation.

Then I was called cynical by others all because I realized the nature of humanity everyone does something for something.And it is true you can lie to yourself all you want but in the end at one point you wanted something ,but you lied to yourself so you can self justify your actions.

Those goodie two shoes like I was did it for that satisfaction for when you helped someone.

Some people want power,money,women and there are many more motivations that I don't feel like listing ,long story short everyone wants something.

Just like my father that beats me in drunk rage now all to relieve is anger stress and sadness.

But that all changed after a two years of torment now I defend myself, my father worked out alot at some point he stopped and that's how I won.

Gradually everyone turned they're backs on me and now my class mates beat me up an have taken my father's place by doing so and I beat them when they're in small groups and sadly my teachers did nothing about them, my father got his st#t straight once I beat him up and I yelled at him for a while the short version is get your st#t together and it worked. But he was mad when he found out whats happening to me i told him not to worry I'll get back at them

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And he contiued saying sorry to me every now and then and he became and even better father and we both grieved mothers death in our own way so I understood why he did what he did, I was the one with her and the killer went behind bars so he blamed me as well when he didn't feel any better.

But I did I always loved the feeling I get when I get back at someone and that's what I'll do to those who wronged menif they don't repent.

Another year passed and a group of teens transfered here they all talked to me and were nice, it's nice to have someone to talk to we hit it off and this girl named Megan kept on checking if I was alright.

But one day the students who despised me followed me to an alley way and gunmed me down each one shot me 6 times amd used they're whole clip I was barely alive then the leader said"Don't blame us , blame yourself you self rightious rich as#hole nobody has ever liked you no-one ever will."

I realized there is some truth to his words but I didn't really care and it's obvious what causes this jealousy that I was hanging out with the "cool" group, disgusting ,theyre all

disgusting.

Then I laughed "ahahahahaha your all disgusting , your absolutely the filth of society , you f#cked your lives up now because you used bullets that still had they're numbers on them they'll know who killed me and then you will rot in prison.

I managed to get out my yelling is now around the same sound level as my usual talking voice and my usual talking voice is almost like a whisper.

blood is flowing in my throat I feel my heart beating very slowly like its always done and the blood flowed all over my organs.

I could feel it a sharp pain everytime my heart beats, I knew the only reason I'm still thinking is because the brain continues to function a little while after losing blood flow I still have some blood flowing but blood loss is going to be what kills me first at this rate or multiple organ failures .

But once the thugs left laughing at me a portal opened up when I was about to pass out and a piece of sludge shooted out at me and then darkness enveloped me and that's where I am at this point.