Him
I always look at you and i begin to wonder is this life all i ever wanted.
We talked for years but thats not all it ever was, until one day you decided to ask me out.
My first thought was to say no but then i thought, what could go wrong, we could figure this out
She asked me through text and that's the funny part
we lived 5 minutes away thanks to me on my skateboard
so she could have just waited but shes not one for being patient
Dont think i regret saying yes although she probably think i do.
Me
I never put myself out there before
But it felt like I could want nothing else more
More than being happy, than believing I needed outer beauty to please you
No has ever sees me the way he do....
Holds my personality together like you
It's not like our love is perfect but it's far more than worth it
Him
We met in school and believe it or not it was over a picture
She said she liked it and i think i said i know
why else would she talk to a guy she doesn't even know?
Your guess is as good as mine because it was a competition.
I had no intention of winning the cash but it would have been nice, instead i won in a different way
Skip forward to now and its weird because all she mostly do is scream in my ear.
I find it annoying
Me
That word choice is intresting and so is the cause
All my life I have been runing but from what I dont know
Sometimes I feel like I've been afraid to have false hopes to feel that high people call love
Afraid to have my heart broken since it was never truley whole to begin with
but I took a chance...
A chance on you for once I felt hope..
like death wasnt the only way to get rid of my darkness
like I could even have a future....I had never felt that before
And it was...amazing!
But lately I feel;
invisible
unheard
untouched
unloved
I question if I died would you even know? Would it make a difference?
would you feel the loss I feel even though we're only inches apart?
Death.....is not as cruel as love
So you see he's lucky....lucky to feel just annoyed, a feeling that easily fades
Because I'm left to feel worthless, alone, Traped by my own darkness.
Me again
I was waiting for you to respond, to tell me i was wrong
To tell me your here for me, to show the world how great a team we should be
I know you have a hard time with emotions well so do i
Yours get trapped inside unable to come out
Mine over runs my mind heart and soul with pain depression and self doubt
But every now and then i see you shine, see you sacrifice your happiness for mine
But thats not what im looking for i need you to listen
to know the difference between when im yelling
and when im crying out for help
Im willing to help you, if you were ever brave enough to ask for it
Im here for you, just need you to be there for me
No relationship is perfect but our bond as a family has the potential to be.