1 Prologue- My reality

As it seems; from the outside… things are clearly looking normal and calm that is unfortunately contras to the inside of my brain; my head, my thoughts… somehow, I do wish I could tell somebody bout the insanity, catastrophe, how tragic, gore, angry, sad, disappointment and all sorts of feelings that's being build up in me since I ever remember…

But.. at the same time… I was feeling grateful for having these restrained and controlled over my own thoughts so the dark secrets never leaves my head nor my soul… coz if somehow these thoughts DO get a chances to slips out… I'm sure I'll be alone with no one else but myself to be friend of…

"Leave me Alone!" I was never a fan of school-love affairs before; not even now. Its stills annoys me how these girls lives day by day 'trying hard' to avoid being wooed by 'the so called school hotties… but they're actually just playing hard to get as finally they actually say yes to the guy; what gives?

As a student in this un popular institute that didn't want to get involve with anything or even anyone; especially.

These are the things that are the worst could happen besides the fact that I'll get forced to join ANYTHING that includes group project… I can't exactly blame them since my old self was quite a friendly and outgoing kid… and she can't stop smiling… it's a habit to be naturally friendly now since I'm terribly used to it; even though the after effect was quite gore to my insides…