13 Self

A/N: inspired by anime Tsuki Ga Kirei (Ep 12). I'm still emotional to that episode.

I am reminiscing my past,

'Cause I'm the one of the few who doesn't have a lass,

I'm in state of jealousy for them,

Making sweet memories, PDA's and love teams.

I wonder the hell of this life,

Jerky god of fate and mischievous god of destiny played me with knife,

They let girls and women surround and befriend me,

Yet, they locked my heart in exchange for being brainy.

I don't have the strength to turn huge tidal waves back to sea,

But I'm still hoping, my hardships they could see,

My effortless endeavors and perfectly imperfections,

But I'm mute, deaf and stone cold in love, I can't convey my affection.

Writing and reading as I always do back then,

Ignoring all criticisms and bullying of men and women,

I write and write, paperworks, schoolworks and stories,

Stories that I am the King or God, but it is all fantasies.

Elementary, High School and College,

Burden of mountain of files, I still managed,

Almost a decade of basic and higher education, I was bullied,

Thanks to you, made my self stronger and firmer only in my mind.

Gods of fate and destiny still played with me,

Up until now I'm still finding the key,

Sequences are dis-harmonized like my self,

Now you know who I am, I was left.