5 day 5

I've been through so much that there isn't much out there that can scare me anymore, I've felt the most pain that i could ever feel and there is nothing left, i believe that I'm capable of doing anything.

I've survived so much pain and suffering, heartbreak, and trama and yet I'm still here, I'm not sure how i am i just am, it's getting late now and my mind is still full of endless thoughts,

i can't seem to actually understand, i haven't eaten anything today or the last few days, i just don't have much of an appetite, i always go up stairs to get away from is all for awhile, to clear my head so i don't slip up and show my true self, it's so frustrating that i can't even show my own family and even accept my own feelings i just can't manage to.